Shadowfever
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She smiled but it didnt reach her eyes, and too late I remembered her touch of emotional telepathy. She could feel how badly off balance I was.
I felt doubly betrayed, first by Dani, then by Barrons for telling me he wouldnt wait forever. And ashamed for things I didnt understand. But it went all the way back to believing he was dead, then finding out he was alive, and it had something to do with my sister. No, it went back farther than that, to the end of my being Pri-ya. I sighed. I couldnt pin it down.
Last night I found the Unseelie that killed Alina, I told Kat, figuring that would get her off my back.
The sharp focus of her gaze softened. Did you have your revenge, then?
I nodded, not trusting myself to speak.
But it failed to ease your pain as you expected it would. She was silent a moment. When the walls came down, Rowena didnt tell us about eating Unseelie. I lost both my brothers to Shades. Ive killed dozens of them since. It never makes me feel better. If only revenge would bring them back, but it doesnt. It adds to the body count.
Wise as ever, Kat. I smiled. But inwardly I seethed.
I didnt want wise. I wanted blood. Crushed bones. Destruction. My dark lake had rippled into crashing waves last night, with a dark wind blowing hard across it.
I am here, it was saying. Use me. What are you waiting for?
I had no answer for it.
I continued to march toward OConnell and Beacon, checking my watch. It was ten to nine. Kat had fallen into step with me a few blocks back.
Wheres Jo?
Food poisoning. Bad can of beans. Thought about bringing Dani but couldnt find her. Brought Sophie instead.
Hearing Danis name impacted me hard. Kat looked at me sharply. I squared my shoulders and marched on. At the intersection, Vlane and his Seelie waited, on the opposite side of the street from Rowena and her sidhe-seers.
My dark lake boiled at the sight of her, hissed and steamed: Think she doesnt know Dani did it? She knows everything. Did she order it? I locked my jaw down and fisted my hands.
I would take care of my personal vendettas later. First things first. If I was the Unseelie King, I needed the Book locked away, the sooner the better. If I wasnt the Unseelie King, I still needed it locked away, because, for whatever reason, it kept coming for me and those I loved. My parents and I would never be safe, as long as it was loose.
All I had to do was play my small part. I would fly the Hunter over the citysupplied courtesy of Barrons, dampened and controlledand help them corner it. Once it was contained, I would join them on the ground.
Just to be on the safe side, I planned to keep my distance. I didnt want any more surprises in my life.
My body tensedwith sexual awareness.
Mac, Ryodan said coolly as he pushed past me.
The sexual tension heightened to a painful state, and I knew Barrons was behind me. I waited for him to pass.
Kat walked by, Lor passed, and then they were all at the intersection. Still I stood, waiting for Barrons to get out from behind me.
Then his hand was on the nape of my neck and I felt the hardness of him against my ass. I inhaled sharply and leaned back against him, pushing for him with my hips.
He was gone.
I swallowed. I hadnt seen him all afternoon, since hed told me I could lose him.
Ms. Lane, he said coolly.
Barrons.
The Hunter is landing in He looked up. Three two now.
It flapped down into the center of the intersection, wings churning black ice crystals in the air. It settled with a soft whuff of breath, swung its head low, and glared at me with fiery eyes. It was subduedand pissed as hell about it. I felt for it with my mind. It was seething, rattling the bars of whatever cage Barrons was capable of creating with his mysterious runes and spells.
Good hunting, he said.
Barrons, I
Youve got rotten timing.
You two gonna stand there fucking each other with your eyes all night, or can we get on with it? Christian demanded.
The Keltar had arrived. Christopher, Drustan, Dageus, and Cian stalked from a nearby alley.
Get on your demon horse, girl, and fly. But remember, Rowena shook a warning finger at me, were watching you.
And although I knew now why she was so convinced I was a threatsince Dani had told me about the real prophecyI still consoled myself with the thought of deposing and killing her.
This Hunter was larger than the last one Barrons had charmed. It took Barrons, Lor, and Ryodan to help me get up on its back. I was glad Id remembered to bring gloves and to dress warmly. It was like sitting on an iceberg with sulfur breath.
Once I was settled between its icy wings, I looked around.
This was it.
The night we were going to take down the Sinsar Dubh.
At the meeting yesterday, no one had even raised the question: What then?
Rowena hadnt said: The Seelie wont be permitted anywhere near it! It will be ours to guard, and we will keep it under lock and key forever!
As if anybodyd believe that. It had gotten out once.
And Vlane hadnt said: Then I will take my queen to Faery, with the Book, where she will recover and search it for fragments of the Song of Making, so she can reimprison the Unseelie and re-create the walls between our worlds.
I felt doubly betrayed, first by Dani, then by Barrons for telling me he wouldnt wait forever. And ashamed for things I didnt understand. But it went all the way back to believing he was dead, then finding out he was alive, and it had something to do with my sister. No, it went back farther than that, to the end of my being Pri-ya. I sighed. I couldnt pin it down.
Last night I found the Unseelie that killed Alina, I told Kat, figuring that would get her off my back.
The sharp focus of her gaze softened. Did you have your revenge, then?
I nodded, not trusting myself to speak.
But it failed to ease your pain as you expected it would. She was silent a moment. When the walls came down, Rowena didnt tell us about eating Unseelie. I lost both my brothers to Shades. Ive killed dozens of them since. It never makes me feel better. If only revenge would bring them back, but it doesnt. It adds to the body count.
Wise as ever, Kat. I smiled. But inwardly I seethed.
I didnt want wise. I wanted blood. Crushed bones. Destruction. My dark lake had rippled into crashing waves last night, with a dark wind blowing hard across it.
I am here, it was saying. Use me. What are you waiting for?
I had no answer for it.
I continued to march toward OConnell and Beacon, checking my watch. It was ten to nine. Kat had fallen into step with me a few blocks back.
Wheres Jo?
Food poisoning. Bad can of beans. Thought about bringing Dani but couldnt find her. Brought Sophie instead.
Hearing Danis name impacted me hard. Kat looked at me sharply. I squared my shoulders and marched on. At the intersection, Vlane and his Seelie waited, on the opposite side of the street from Rowena and her sidhe-seers.
My dark lake boiled at the sight of her, hissed and steamed: Think she doesnt know Dani did it? She knows everything. Did she order it? I locked my jaw down and fisted my hands.
I would take care of my personal vendettas later. First things first. If I was the Unseelie King, I needed the Book locked away, the sooner the better. If I wasnt the Unseelie King, I still needed it locked away, because, for whatever reason, it kept coming for me and those I loved. My parents and I would never be safe, as long as it was loose.
All I had to do was play my small part. I would fly the Hunter over the citysupplied courtesy of Barrons, dampened and controlledand help them corner it. Once it was contained, I would join them on the ground.
Just to be on the safe side, I planned to keep my distance. I didnt want any more surprises in my life.
My body tensedwith sexual awareness.
Mac, Ryodan said coolly as he pushed past me.
The sexual tension heightened to a painful state, and I knew Barrons was behind me. I waited for him to pass.
Kat walked by, Lor passed, and then they were all at the intersection. Still I stood, waiting for Barrons to get out from behind me.
Then his hand was on the nape of my neck and I felt the hardness of him against my ass. I inhaled sharply and leaned back against him, pushing for him with my hips.
He was gone.
I swallowed. I hadnt seen him all afternoon, since hed told me I could lose him.
Ms. Lane, he said coolly.
Barrons.
The Hunter is landing in He looked up. Three two now.
It flapped down into the center of the intersection, wings churning black ice crystals in the air. It settled with a soft whuff of breath, swung its head low, and glared at me with fiery eyes. It was subduedand pissed as hell about it. I felt for it with my mind. It was seething, rattling the bars of whatever cage Barrons was capable of creating with his mysterious runes and spells.
Good hunting, he said.
Barrons, I
Youve got rotten timing.
You two gonna stand there fucking each other with your eyes all night, or can we get on with it? Christian demanded.
The Keltar had arrived. Christopher, Drustan, Dageus, and Cian stalked from a nearby alley.
Get on your demon horse, girl, and fly. But remember, Rowena shook a warning finger at me, were watching you.
And although I knew now why she was so convinced I was a threatsince Dani had told me about the real prophecyI still consoled myself with the thought of deposing and killing her.
This Hunter was larger than the last one Barrons had charmed. It took Barrons, Lor, and Ryodan to help me get up on its back. I was glad Id remembered to bring gloves and to dress warmly. It was like sitting on an iceberg with sulfur breath.
Once I was settled between its icy wings, I looked around.
This was it.
The night we were going to take down the Sinsar Dubh.
At the meeting yesterday, no one had even raised the question: What then?
Rowena hadnt said: The Seelie wont be permitted anywhere near it! It will be ours to guard, and we will keep it under lock and key forever!
As if anybodyd believe that. It had gotten out once.
And Vlane hadnt said: Then I will take my queen to Faery, with the Book, where she will recover and search it for fragments of the Song of Making, so she can reimprison the Unseelie and re-create the walls between our worlds.
