Somebody to Love
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He glanced at her without stopping. Right. She should speak. She swallowed. “Hey.”
“Hey,” he answered.
“Are you mad at me?” she asked. “For taking a swim?”
He did stop then. “No. Just had a crappy day.”
Parker felt a pang of guilt. She didn’t know much about Thing One, granted, and she’d definitely been keeping conversation terribly neutral. But here he was, working like a dog for her. And when she’d gone swimming, he’d been rather adorably anxious.
“Want some dinner?” she asked. “I’m cooking.”
His eyes were very dark. Ethan’s were brown, too, but a lighter color. James, though. James had eyes that were so brown they were almost black. A person could look into those eyes and just about get lost.
“Sure,” he said, then went back to ripping off the shingles.
Crappy day, huh? Well, she’d make him something nice. She’d been to the market this morning—not the tiny one in town, but the bigger one about half an hour away—and had stocked up. In the sunny kitchen, she rinsed some spinach, sliced tomatoes, put the water on to boil the pasta. James came in to shower, and it was hard not to imagine him in there, all soapy and wet. And tanned. And naked. And wet. And naked.
“Down, girl,” she said to herself, causing Beauty to flop to the floor. “I wasn’t talking to you, sweetie,” Parker added. The little dog had been trained by someone, it was clear. She didn’t put a toenail out of line, as if afraid of being beaten, poor sweet thing. “You’re such a good girl,” Parker said, giving her a strip of salami. She was rewarded with a slight swishing of the dog’s tail.
Dinner wouldn’t be too fancy, but it smelled heavenly. She opened a nice bottle of Meursault, stolen from Grayhurst’s wine cellar, then brought everything down to the dock and set it up, picnic-style. She poured a glass of wine for herself and sat down, looking out at the water.
The harbor was smooth now, the smallest ripples lapping gently against the rocky shore, and the sun was beginning its descent, filling the horizon with gold, turning the clouds to cream. A piping plover ran along the shore, stopped to peck at something, then ran some more. Always in such a hurry, those little birds.
The dock shifted, and Parker looked over. James had changed into jeans and a white polo shirt and looked like an ad for Ralph Lauren.
“Didn’t know you could cook,” he said, looking down at the spread.
“Surprise. I like cooking. Have a seat, James.” She patted the blanket, poured some wine and handed him a glass. “Thanks for all your hard work today.”
“You’re welcome. Thanks for dinner.”
“You hungry?”
“Starving.”
They ate, plates in their laps, looking over the water, not talking. The tide was going out, exposing a few rocks, and a line of cormorants swam over and clambered up, spreading their wings to dry. A few lobster boats motored in. There was Billy Bottoms, the white-haired man who looked as if he belonged on a postcard; Parker had met him at the diner a couple days ago when she was picking up lunch. Then came the Twin Menace, which belonged to Maggie’s brother, she’d learned. The Ugly Anne came in last, and Malone lifted a hand in greeting. She waved back.
“So why the bad mood today?” Parker asked.
“Family stuff.” James set his empty plate next to him.
“Do you have a lot of family around here?”
“I have three brothers and a sister, all in Maine. My parents still live in the same house where I grew up.”
“Here in Gideon’s Cove?”
“No. About an hour and twenty minutes west of here.”
“Are you guys close?”
He paused. “Some of us are.”
“And Dewey, who owns the bar, he’s your uncle, right?” she asked.
“Yep. My mother’s brother. She’s one of seven. My dad has three sisters.”
She didn’t mean to interrogate him, but big families fascinated her. She’d only had her parents and the Coven, after all. “You must have a lot of cousins, then.”
“Nineteen.”
Parker smiled. “Sounds fun.”
“It was,” James said.
Was. Not is. He didn’t explain, though. “I always wished I had more cousins,” she said. “Four girls about the same age. It wasn’t pretty.”
“I remember,” he said.
Ah. Right. At Esme’s wedding, when they’d done a lot more than talk. Parker felt her ears heat up. Could be the wine.
It was getting dark; clouds had gathered off Douglas Point, and the wind kicked up a little, lifting her hair. A rumble of thunder rolled in the distance.
Parker’s phone cheeped. She looked. Oh, goody! A message from Ellen! Maybe her agent already had some interest in the Ark Angels.
Hey, Parker, sorry to say, they took a pass on the Ark Angels. It didn’t seem to have the same sincerity as the Holy Rollers. Back to the drawing board! Don’t worry. We’re all confident that you’re almost there! Just go with the flow, and something will hit you. Sooner is better, okay? Hope you’re having fun in Maine! Talk soon.
Well, bugger. Bugger and damn.
“Go with the flow”? She’d been waiting for the flow for some time. There was no flow. And “the same sincerity”? The Holy Rollers had no sincerity! Mickey the Fire Engine, which had been rejected by both her agent and publisher all those years ago…Mickey had sincerity. He was an extraordinarily sincere fire engine.
“Everything okay?” James asked.
“Sure. Yes.” She looked out at the water. “Actually, no. My publisher didn’t like my new series idea. So that’s not good.”
“But you’re a big hit, aren’t you?”
“I was.”
The phone cheeped again. Aw. Ethan had sent a picture of Nicky, standing in front of a giant redwood tree. Parker’s throat tightened at the sight of her son. There was another attachment, this one a drawing of two humans with giant heads and skinny legs. One had long hair, and one had spiky hair. They were holding the hand of a smaller giant-head person. Nicky had labeled them Daddy, Lucy, Me and written, “We Love You, Mommy.”
Crap. Her eyes were wet.
“You okay, Parker?” James asked.
“I miss my son,” Parker said, swallowing. The words didn’t do him justice. It felt as if a part of her was missing, that’s what it felt like, as if she was killing time until her real life started when he came back, and crikey, time had slowed to an absolute crawl.
“He’ll be here soon, right?”
“Eighteen days.”
“Eighteen days,” James repeated, looking at her.
“I’ve never gone more than two without seeing him,” she admitted.
“Must be tough.”
“Yeah. For me, anyway. Nicky’s having the time of his life. Swimming in the Pacific, seeing Muir Woods, horseback riding.” She shook her head. “Then he gets to come here, to this…shack.”
“It’s shaping up, Parker. It’ll be fine by the time he gets here.”
She set her plate down, glanced at James and his kind, dark eyes. For a second, she almost admitted what was on her mind, and a fear that had cropped up more and more in the past six months: that Nicky would ask to live with Lucy and Ethan full-time, and if he said that, it would kill her.
“What if I can’t sell this place?” she asked. “I mean, even if I can, there won’t be too much left over, and I don’t have that many marketable skills, Thing One. I was a double major in English and Ethics. Should’ve listened to my father and gone into finance.”
“Look where that got him,” James said.
Parker picked a splinter from the dock. “You know what the kicker is? Those miserable little Holy Rollers would’ve made me a ton. The movie comes out this summer—The Holy Rollers in 3-D! and they put that exclamation point there as part of the title, as if it wasn’t already dumb enough. And now, I can’t write anything, I can’t come up with anything decent, I’m completely and utterly stuck.”
Crap. Why was Thing One always around during her weaker moments? Swallowing, she pressed her lips together and looked away. The sky had clouded over, and it was darker in the west. Another growl of thunder came from the far distance.
A second later, she felt his hand on hers. Warm and calloused and…comforting.
“Everything will turn out fine, Parker,” he said. “This summer’s just a bump in the road.”
Please, God, that was true. She nodded, not trusting her voice.
“You’re a Harvard grad, as you like to remind me. You’ll find a job. And your son loves you. That won’t change.”
She glanced at him—he was looking at her steadily, and those deep, dark eyes were kind. She gave his hand a quick squeeze. “Thanks.”
He didn’t look away.
No one looked at a person that way anymore. They checked their phones, or scanned the horizon, or glanced around. But Thing One kept looking at her. Kept holding her hand, too.
“I’m glad you’re here, James,” she admitted, and her voice was a little husky.
“Me, too.” His thumb moved over the back of her hand, and suddenly, Lady Land perked up. Those eyes…that whole face, in fact…that warm hand…
He leaned a little closer, and her heart rate tripled. She remembered what it had been like to kiss James Cahill, and her legs tingled. Remembered his hands on her, against her skin, his mouth on her neck, on her—
Then a bolt of thunder cracked right overhead, Parker jumped and Beauty leaped up and streaked for the house. The first fat drops of rain smacked down on the dock.
Moment over. Sign from God.
“Well,” Parker said, her voice breathy. “Looks like rain.” Yes. Rain tended to look like rain. She stood up, her legs still tingly, her hand feeling cold and empty. “We better hurry.”
Careful not to look at him, she grabbed a few things at random, a plate, a glass, a napkin. Then the heavens opened, and she raced up the stairs, as much a coward as Beauty.
The cold rain on her shoulders was almost a relief.
* * *
WHEN JAMES GOT UP to the house, he was soaked. And the power was out. Looked as if all of Gideon’s Cove had lost power, in fact. He put down the things Parker hadn’t managed to grab and ran his hands through his wet hair.
“James, leave everything, okay?” Parker’s voice came from down the hall. “I’ll clean up in the morning. Uh, Beauty’s scared, and she’s hiding under my bed, so I’ll stay in here. Good night.”
Beauty wasn’t the only one who was hiding. “Good night,” he said. Another bolt of thunder crackled across the sky.
He’d almost kissed her. Which was a dumb idea, no matter how much he wanted to.
It would be a long time till he fell asleep, he knew. Rather than fight it, he opened the quiet fridge and groped around for a beer, took it out onto the back patio and sat, watching the storm roll and flash over the harbor, the pine trees black in the harsh flashes of lightning, the lobster boats starkly white.
What do you think’s gonna happen, idiot? his conscience chided in the harsh voice of his father. She’s already blown you off once. Think you measure up to the Paragon? And what happens when she finds out what you did?
James took a long pull on his beer. There were plenty of women out there who’d be a lot easier than Parker, that was for sure. Leah back home would love to see more of him. It’s just that there wasn’t a lot to Leah. Sweet girl. Fun to hang out with, fun in bed. But while she tended to talk…and talk…and talk, she never seemed to say anything. Which was cute for a while, that chattering. Cute for about two hours, at which point they’d fool around, then she’d chatter some more, then he’d leave.
“Hey,” he answered.
“Are you mad at me?” she asked. “For taking a swim?”
He did stop then. “No. Just had a crappy day.”
Parker felt a pang of guilt. She didn’t know much about Thing One, granted, and she’d definitely been keeping conversation terribly neutral. But here he was, working like a dog for her. And when she’d gone swimming, he’d been rather adorably anxious.
“Want some dinner?” she asked. “I’m cooking.”
His eyes were very dark. Ethan’s were brown, too, but a lighter color. James, though. James had eyes that were so brown they were almost black. A person could look into those eyes and just about get lost.
“Sure,” he said, then went back to ripping off the shingles.
Crappy day, huh? Well, she’d make him something nice. She’d been to the market this morning—not the tiny one in town, but the bigger one about half an hour away—and had stocked up. In the sunny kitchen, she rinsed some spinach, sliced tomatoes, put the water on to boil the pasta. James came in to shower, and it was hard not to imagine him in there, all soapy and wet. And tanned. And naked. And wet. And naked.
“Down, girl,” she said to herself, causing Beauty to flop to the floor. “I wasn’t talking to you, sweetie,” Parker added. The little dog had been trained by someone, it was clear. She didn’t put a toenail out of line, as if afraid of being beaten, poor sweet thing. “You’re such a good girl,” Parker said, giving her a strip of salami. She was rewarded with a slight swishing of the dog’s tail.
Dinner wouldn’t be too fancy, but it smelled heavenly. She opened a nice bottle of Meursault, stolen from Grayhurst’s wine cellar, then brought everything down to the dock and set it up, picnic-style. She poured a glass of wine for herself and sat down, looking out at the water.
The harbor was smooth now, the smallest ripples lapping gently against the rocky shore, and the sun was beginning its descent, filling the horizon with gold, turning the clouds to cream. A piping plover ran along the shore, stopped to peck at something, then ran some more. Always in such a hurry, those little birds.
The dock shifted, and Parker looked over. James had changed into jeans and a white polo shirt and looked like an ad for Ralph Lauren.
“Didn’t know you could cook,” he said, looking down at the spread.
“Surprise. I like cooking. Have a seat, James.” She patted the blanket, poured some wine and handed him a glass. “Thanks for all your hard work today.”
“You’re welcome. Thanks for dinner.”
“You hungry?”
“Starving.”
They ate, plates in their laps, looking over the water, not talking. The tide was going out, exposing a few rocks, and a line of cormorants swam over and clambered up, spreading their wings to dry. A few lobster boats motored in. There was Billy Bottoms, the white-haired man who looked as if he belonged on a postcard; Parker had met him at the diner a couple days ago when she was picking up lunch. Then came the Twin Menace, which belonged to Maggie’s brother, she’d learned. The Ugly Anne came in last, and Malone lifted a hand in greeting. She waved back.
“So why the bad mood today?” Parker asked.
“Family stuff.” James set his empty plate next to him.
“Do you have a lot of family around here?”
“I have three brothers and a sister, all in Maine. My parents still live in the same house where I grew up.”
“Here in Gideon’s Cove?”
“No. About an hour and twenty minutes west of here.”
“Are you guys close?”
He paused. “Some of us are.”
“And Dewey, who owns the bar, he’s your uncle, right?” she asked.
“Yep. My mother’s brother. She’s one of seven. My dad has three sisters.”
She didn’t mean to interrogate him, but big families fascinated her. She’d only had her parents and the Coven, after all. “You must have a lot of cousins, then.”
“Nineteen.”
Parker smiled. “Sounds fun.”
“It was,” James said.
Was. Not is. He didn’t explain, though. “I always wished I had more cousins,” she said. “Four girls about the same age. It wasn’t pretty.”
“I remember,” he said.
Ah. Right. At Esme’s wedding, when they’d done a lot more than talk. Parker felt her ears heat up. Could be the wine.
It was getting dark; clouds had gathered off Douglas Point, and the wind kicked up a little, lifting her hair. A rumble of thunder rolled in the distance.
Parker’s phone cheeped. She looked. Oh, goody! A message from Ellen! Maybe her agent already had some interest in the Ark Angels.
Hey, Parker, sorry to say, they took a pass on the Ark Angels. It didn’t seem to have the same sincerity as the Holy Rollers. Back to the drawing board! Don’t worry. We’re all confident that you’re almost there! Just go with the flow, and something will hit you. Sooner is better, okay? Hope you’re having fun in Maine! Talk soon.
Well, bugger. Bugger and damn.
“Go with the flow”? She’d been waiting for the flow for some time. There was no flow. And “the same sincerity”? The Holy Rollers had no sincerity! Mickey the Fire Engine, which had been rejected by both her agent and publisher all those years ago…Mickey had sincerity. He was an extraordinarily sincere fire engine.
“Everything okay?” James asked.
“Sure. Yes.” She looked out at the water. “Actually, no. My publisher didn’t like my new series idea. So that’s not good.”
“But you’re a big hit, aren’t you?”
“I was.”
The phone cheeped again. Aw. Ethan had sent a picture of Nicky, standing in front of a giant redwood tree. Parker’s throat tightened at the sight of her son. There was another attachment, this one a drawing of two humans with giant heads and skinny legs. One had long hair, and one had spiky hair. They were holding the hand of a smaller giant-head person. Nicky had labeled them Daddy, Lucy, Me and written, “We Love You, Mommy.”
Crap. Her eyes were wet.
“You okay, Parker?” James asked.
“I miss my son,” Parker said, swallowing. The words didn’t do him justice. It felt as if a part of her was missing, that’s what it felt like, as if she was killing time until her real life started when he came back, and crikey, time had slowed to an absolute crawl.
“He’ll be here soon, right?”
“Eighteen days.”
“Eighteen days,” James repeated, looking at her.
“I’ve never gone more than two without seeing him,” she admitted.
“Must be tough.”
“Yeah. For me, anyway. Nicky’s having the time of his life. Swimming in the Pacific, seeing Muir Woods, horseback riding.” She shook her head. “Then he gets to come here, to this…shack.”
“It’s shaping up, Parker. It’ll be fine by the time he gets here.”
She set her plate down, glanced at James and his kind, dark eyes. For a second, she almost admitted what was on her mind, and a fear that had cropped up more and more in the past six months: that Nicky would ask to live with Lucy and Ethan full-time, and if he said that, it would kill her.
“What if I can’t sell this place?” she asked. “I mean, even if I can, there won’t be too much left over, and I don’t have that many marketable skills, Thing One. I was a double major in English and Ethics. Should’ve listened to my father and gone into finance.”
“Look where that got him,” James said.
Parker picked a splinter from the dock. “You know what the kicker is? Those miserable little Holy Rollers would’ve made me a ton. The movie comes out this summer—The Holy Rollers in 3-D! and they put that exclamation point there as part of the title, as if it wasn’t already dumb enough. And now, I can’t write anything, I can’t come up with anything decent, I’m completely and utterly stuck.”
Crap. Why was Thing One always around during her weaker moments? Swallowing, she pressed her lips together and looked away. The sky had clouded over, and it was darker in the west. Another growl of thunder came from the far distance.
A second later, she felt his hand on hers. Warm and calloused and…comforting.
“Everything will turn out fine, Parker,” he said. “This summer’s just a bump in the road.”
Please, God, that was true. She nodded, not trusting her voice.
“You’re a Harvard grad, as you like to remind me. You’ll find a job. And your son loves you. That won’t change.”
She glanced at him—he was looking at her steadily, and those deep, dark eyes were kind. She gave his hand a quick squeeze. “Thanks.”
He didn’t look away.
No one looked at a person that way anymore. They checked their phones, or scanned the horizon, or glanced around. But Thing One kept looking at her. Kept holding her hand, too.
“I’m glad you’re here, James,” she admitted, and her voice was a little husky.
“Me, too.” His thumb moved over the back of her hand, and suddenly, Lady Land perked up. Those eyes…that whole face, in fact…that warm hand…
He leaned a little closer, and her heart rate tripled. She remembered what it had been like to kiss James Cahill, and her legs tingled. Remembered his hands on her, against her skin, his mouth on her neck, on her—
Then a bolt of thunder cracked right overhead, Parker jumped and Beauty leaped up and streaked for the house. The first fat drops of rain smacked down on the dock.
Moment over. Sign from God.
“Well,” Parker said, her voice breathy. “Looks like rain.” Yes. Rain tended to look like rain. She stood up, her legs still tingly, her hand feeling cold and empty. “We better hurry.”
Careful not to look at him, she grabbed a few things at random, a plate, a glass, a napkin. Then the heavens opened, and she raced up the stairs, as much a coward as Beauty.
The cold rain on her shoulders was almost a relief.
* * *
WHEN JAMES GOT UP to the house, he was soaked. And the power was out. Looked as if all of Gideon’s Cove had lost power, in fact. He put down the things Parker hadn’t managed to grab and ran his hands through his wet hair.
“James, leave everything, okay?” Parker’s voice came from down the hall. “I’ll clean up in the morning. Uh, Beauty’s scared, and she’s hiding under my bed, so I’ll stay in here. Good night.”
Beauty wasn’t the only one who was hiding. “Good night,” he said. Another bolt of thunder crackled across the sky.
He’d almost kissed her. Which was a dumb idea, no matter how much he wanted to.
It would be a long time till he fell asleep, he knew. Rather than fight it, he opened the quiet fridge and groped around for a beer, took it out onto the back patio and sat, watching the storm roll and flash over the harbor, the pine trees black in the harsh flashes of lightning, the lobster boats starkly white.
What do you think’s gonna happen, idiot? his conscience chided in the harsh voice of his father. She’s already blown you off once. Think you measure up to the Paragon? And what happens when she finds out what you did?
James took a long pull on his beer. There were plenty of women out there who’d be a lot easier than Parker, that was for sure. Leah back home would love to see more of him. It’s just that there wasn’t a lot to Leah. Sweet girl. Fun to hang out with, fun in bed. But while she tended to talk…and talk…and talk, she never seemed to say anything. Which was cute for a while, that chattering. Cute for about two hours, at which point they’d fool around, then she’d chatter some more, then he’d leave.
