The Crown's Fate
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When he was younger, Nikolai hadn’t known how to keep his feelings in check. He’d been mistreated as a child on the steppe and then grown up under Galina’s tyrannical rule. He used to hurl daggers through projects of his that failed, and he would sometimes sew his own mouth shut—magically, of course (real needle and thread would hurt too much)—when he was upset but wanted to keep inside what he felt were inappropriate sentiments. But as he grew older, Nikolai figured out how to bury his past under gentility and grace, even though it was still there, just beneath the surface.
Now, however, he gasped as iciness spread inside him, like spindly tentacles, reaching for that secret cauldron in the depths of his heart.
“No!” he said.
But he was powerless to fight it, for that very energy was the only energy of substance that Nikolai had, and all he could do was double over in horror as it lifted the lid on everything he didn’t want to feel.
Nikolai tallied his brother’s wrongs in his head. Pasha’s betrayal. The apology that meant nothing because it had come too late, come at a memorial service after Pasha thought Nikolai was already dead. And the fact that Pasha could continue to live his gilded life, with Vika by his side, while Nikolai was stuck in ante-death as a shadow . . .
Had that been Pasha’s hope all along? That by forcing the end of the Game, Vika would prevail? She’d been the stronger of the two enchanters. And with Nikolai out of the way, Pasha would be able to swoop in on Vika, taking advantage of her grief.
Damn you, Pasha. Damn you to the ninth circle of hell.
Nikolai shivered, but the chill simultaneously steeled his muscles.
And then a new idea pushed its way forth, growing quickly, like fractals of ice on a frozen windowpane. If he escaped from this dream—this nightmare—he could make Pasha suffer. He could claim the crown for himself.
But a spark of light within Nikolai pushed back. I once loved Pasha, and he loved me. . . .
And yet men declared duels for insults far less than what Pasha had committed. So why shouldn’t he suffer consequences for his actions? Dante’s ninth circle was too good for a traitor like him.
I deserve to be tsar as much as Pasha does.
And as the idea of wearing the crown settled into Nikolai’s mind . . . there it was. Magic. Like a cold flame, flickering inside him. He seized it and felt it swell.
“Yes . . .” Magic had not forsaken him! It had not abandoned him because he’d lost the Game.
His golden eagle landed beside him in the grass and nodded at him.
“You’re right,” Nikolai said. “I need to go.”
He did not take in his surroundings one last time. He did not bid them farewell. For if he never saw this steppe dream again, it would be too soon.
“Wake me up,” Nikolai whispered.
The stars above him blurred, like specks of salt dissolving into the imaginary night. The scent of grass was replaced by the smell of maple candy and oak.
He was still a shadow, but it didn’t matter. He was sitting on a bench on an island in the middle of the Neva.
Sitting, firmly rooted, in reality.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
As night settled in, a sparrow pecked at Pasha’s antechamber window at the Winter Palace. Pasha frowned from where he sat in his armchair. “What is this?” he said as he rose and crossed the room. He slid the window open, and a gust of snow blew in. The bird darted in as well. It flew so fast, it nearly clipped Pasha across the nose. “Zut alors!” He jerked out of the way.
The sparrow careened across the antechamber and smashed itself into the opposite wall. The bird shattered on impact, and Pasha cried out again. But it wasn’t a live bird at all; it was made of stone. Shards of sharp gray rock rained down onto the burgundy rug.
A small, rolled sheet of paper tied with a black ribbon lay in the bird’s remains.
Pasha walked slowly across the rug to retrieve it. He brushed away the rock dust and untied the ribbon.
The paper leaped from his hand and flew into the air, unrolling itself in the process. It floated directly at eye level so Pasha could read.
Meet me at the statue of Peter the Great at midnight.
The handwriting was ornately elegant yet as precise as a British timepiece. Pasha staggered and braced himself against the wall. He inadvertently crushed the letter in his hand.
It was from Nikolai.
Pasha’s knees gave out, and he crumbled to the rug like rock dust.
Nikolai is alive.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Vika lay in bed, her dream about Nikolai hovering over her like an uninvited ghost. She’d been awake several minutes now, but she could still feel it, his knife in her chest, his greedy, tragic claim on some of the magic. If only Father were alive and here to comfort her, as he used to do when Vika had nightmares and would crawl into his bed and his warm arms in the next room. But now that room was empty. Vika curled into a ball beneath the covers.
It was not easy to discern what was real and what was a dream. As Vika blinked the sleep from her eyes, her body actually did feel lesser than it had before. Was it the cuff that was draining her?
But that didn’t make sense, for she wasn’t doing anything against Pasha or Yuliana’s orders. If the bracelet was supposed to help the tsardom, it wouldn’t weaken her while she was asleep.
Actually, it wasn’t that Vika felt weaker. It was more that, with all of Bolshebnoie Duplo’s power, she’d recently felt like a snake, poised to strike, able to accomplish anything. Now, however, she felt more like a coiled spring, still full of energy and potential but considerably less formidable. Why?
Vika bolted upright in bed.
What if . . .
She recalled the snag in her magic in the dream. And the real hitch when she’d conjured the dome over the Kazakh steppe. She hadn’t understood what could have caused it if all of Bolshebnoie Duplo’s magic was hers.
Unless it wasn’t.
“The magic is meant for us together,” Vika whispered, remembering her dream.
It was Nikolai. It had to be. He was reaching for a share of the magic again, extricating himself from the bench. She knew it like she knew herself, because she could feel him on the other side of their invisible string now, tugging even if he didn’t mean to, tied to her because they were the sun and the moon, always together yet always apart.
The tea leaves.
Always fighting.
Now, however, he gasped as iciness spread inside him, like spindly tentacles, reaching for that secret cauldron in the depths of his heart.
“No!” he said.
But he was powerless to fight it, for that very energy was the only energy of substance that Nikolai had, and all he could do was double over in horror as it lifted the lid on everything he didn’t want to feel.
Nikolai tallied his brother’s wrongs in his head. Pasha’s betrayal. The apology that meant nothing because it had come too late, come at a memorial service after Pasha thought Nikolai was already dead. And the fact that Pasha could continue to live his gilded life, with Vika by his side, while Nikolai was stuck in ante-death as a shadow . . .
Had that been Pasha’s hope all along? That by forcing the end of the Game, Vika would prevail? She’d been the stronger of the two enchanters. And with Nikolai out of the way, Pasha would be able to swoop in on Vika, taking advantage of her grief.
Damn you, Pasha. Damn you to the ninth circle of hell.
Nikolai shivered, but the chill simultaneously steeled his muscles.
And then a new idea pushed its way forth, growing quickly, like fractals of ice on a frozen windowpane. If he escaped from this dream—this nightmare—he could make Pasha suffer. He could claim the crown for himself.
But a spark of light within Nikolai pushed back. I once loved Pasha, and he loved me. . . .
And yet men declared duels for insults far less than what Pasha had committed. So why shouldn’t he suffer consequences for his actions? Dante’s ninth circle was too good for a traitor like him.
I deserve to be tsar as much as Pasha does.
And as the idea of wearing the crown settled into Nikolai’s mind . . . there it was. Magic. Like a cold flame, flickering inside him. He seized it and felt it swell.
“Yes . . .” Magic had not forsaken him! It had not abandoned him because he’d lost the Game.
His golden eagle landed beside him in the grass and nodded at him.
“You’re right,” Nikolai said. “I need to go.”
He did not take in his surroundings one last time. He did not bid them farewell. For if he never saw this steppe dream again, it would be too soon.
“Wake me up,” Nikolai whispered.
The stars above him blurred, like specks of salt dissolving into the imaginary night. The scent of grass was replaced by the smell of maple candy and oak.
He was still a shadow, but it didn’t matter. He was sitting on a bench on an island in the middle of the Neva.
Sitting, firmly rooted, in reality.
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
As night settled in, a sparrow pecked at Pasha’s antechamber window at the Winter Palace. Pasha frowned from where he sat in his armchair. “What is this?” he said as he rose and crossed the room. He slid the window open, and a gust of snow blew in. The bird darted in as well. It flew so fast, it nearly clipped Pasha across the nose. “Zut alors!” He jerked out of the way.
The sparrow careened across the antechamber and smashed itself into the opposite wall. The bird shattered on impact, and Pasha cried out again. But it wasn’t a live bird at all; it was made of stone. Shards of sharp gray rock rained down onto the burgundy rug.
A small, rolled sheet of paper tied with a black ribbon lay in the bird’s remains.
Pasha walked slowly across the rug to retrieve it. He brushed away the rock dust and untied the ribbon.
The paper leaped from his hand and flew into the air, unrolling itself in the process. It floated directly at eye level so Pasha could read.
Meet me at the statue of Peter the Great at midnight.
The handwriting was ornately elegant yet as precise as a British timepiece. Pasha staggered and braced himself against the wall. He inadvertently crushed the letter in his hand.
It was from Nikolai.
Pasha’s knees gave out, and he crumbled to the rug like rock dust.
Nikolai is alive.
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Vika lay in bed, her dream about Nikolai hovering over her like an uninvited ghost. She’d been awake several minutes now, but she could still feel it, his knife in her chest, his greedy, tragic claim on some of the magic. If only Father were alive and here to comfort her, as he used to do when Vika had nightmares and would crawl into his bed and his warm arms in the next room. But now that room was empty. Vika curled into a ball beneath the covers.
It was not easy to discern what was real and what was a dream. As Vika blinked the sleep from her eyes, her body actually did feel lesser than it had before. Was it the cuff that was draining her?
But that didn’t make sense, for she wasn’t doing anything against Pasha or Yuliana’s orders. If the bracelet was supposed to help the tsardom, it wouldn’t weaken her while she was asleep.
Actually, it wasn’t that Vika felt weaker. It was more that, with all of Bolshebnoie Duplo’s power, she’d recently felt like a snake, poised to strike, able to accomplish anything. Now, however, she felt more like a coiled spring, still full of energy and potential but considerably less formidable. Why?
Vika bolted upright in bed.
What if . . .
She recalled the snag in her magic in the dream. And the real hitch when she’d conjured the dome over the Kazakh steppe. She hadn’t understood what could have caused it if all of Bolshebnoie Duplo’s magic was hers.
Unless it wasn’t.
“The magic is meant for us together,” Vika whispered, remembering her dream.
It was Nikolai. It had to be. He was reaching for a share of the magic again, extricating himself from the bench. She knew it like she knew herself, because she could feel him on the other side of their invisible string now, tugging even if he didn’t mean to, tied to her because they were the sun and the moon, always together yet always apart.
The tea leaves.
Always fighting.
