The Lonely Hearts Club
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My face became hot with anger. How could I have expected Tracy to understand the hurt that Diane and I were going through*? Tracy had never had her heart crushed.
"You just don't get it!" I screamed. this was the first time I'd ever raised my voice to Tracy. the group of freshmen at the table next to us got up and left. 'I know you don't understand what I'm going through, but this is what I need." My voice started to waver as I tried to fight back tears. "I thought it was over, but it isn't. He keeps sending me these texts."
"He what?" Tracy pursed her lips.
"He just..." I didn't have the energy to deal with Nate.
"Penny, I told you -- he's such a jerk," Diane said softly. "You don't owe him anything."
Tracy turned to Diane. "You know about Nate?"
"Of course she knows. But I don't want to talk about Nate right now. This Club, not dating -- this is what I want to do. And, even more important, it's what I need to do. Diane supports me. I wish you would, too."
Silence fell on the table. "Pen," Tracy said in a quiet voice. "I'm sorry if you think I'm not being supportive, but don't you see? She's just using you."
Diane flinched. "How can you say that? I'm not using Penny." She paused for a moment, took a deep breath, and looked directly at Tracy. "Why do you hate me so much?"
"I don't___"
"Yes, you do." Diane looked down at her half-eaten salad. "I don't know why, but you always have. I was hoping that the three of us could be friends, because I know how much you mean to Penny. there is no way I could be friends with Penny again without your .. . approval, I guess."
Tracy looked at Diane with complete incomprehension. I don't think she ever imagined Diane Monroe would look to her for anything, much less approval.
"I just. . !" Tracy looked upset. "I don't want you to take Penny away from me."
I looked at Tracy in horror. How could she think that? "Tracy, Diane isn't going to do that."
Diane hesitantly reached over and put her arm on Tracy's shoulder. "Do you think you could just give me a chance? Please?"
I reached over to Tracy. "You know I have to have you behind me."
Tracy shook her head. "I guess I could try . . . for Penny." Dianes face lit up. "But hold on a second." Tracy glared at Diane. "if you ever, I mean ever, pull that crap with Penny again, if you hurt her, you will not live long enough to regret it."
Diane nodded weakly. "I'd really like us to be friends, Tracy, I really would."
Tracy gave Diane an encouraging smile. "Yeah, well, knowing the history with my list, I guess it's only a matter of time before I join you guys on the dark side."
"Can I see your list?" Diane asked hesitantly.
Tracy paused a few seconds before she pulled it out of her bag. "Why not?"
"Oh, I know Paul Levine. He's a really nice guy," Diane offered.
I guessed this was as good a start as I could've hoped for in our new, three-way friendship.
Chapter Ten
AFTER FOUR YEARS OF BASICALLY ignoring each other, it surprised me how quickly Diane and I fell back into place. I assumed it would be awkward, but it wasn't. It was the Penny and Diane of old.
I was waiting for Diane at my locker at the end of the day when Ryan turned the corner, looking upset. He threw open his locker and started shoving books into his backpack with so much force I expected the strap to break.
I looked up and saw Diane approaching me with a smile on her face.
I kept looking between them. I knew they'd been speaking since the breakup, but I didn't want to find myself in the middle of it.
Ryan slammed his locker shut and nearly ran into me when he turned around.
"Sorry," he said.
"Um, that's okay!' I replied, Diane was nearly at our lockers. "Um, everything okay?"
"Huh?" He looked agitated. "I didn't do well on my Chem. Lab."
"Oh, okay." I didn't know what else to say to him. I'd never had trouble speaking with Ryan, but with Diane corning over, I felt like I was betraying her in a way.
"Hey, guys," Diane greeted us.
I noticed people in the hallways slowing down so they could watch Diane and Ryan.
Ryan and Diane noticed, too.
there was an awkward silence in our group as people were hovering, dissecting their every move. I just said the first thing that came to my mind. "Ryan didn't do well on his Chemistry Lab."
Ryan gave me a weird look.
"Sorry, I just..." I was embarrassed.
Diane rolled her eyes, "Like a B is hardly something to get bent out of shape about. Plus, aren't you getting extra credit or something for that student advisory thing?"
"What advisory thing?" I asked.
Ryan blushed. "it's nothing. Principal Braddock has asked some students to meet with him on a regular basis to give him a better sense of the concerns of the student body."
I was confused. "Isn't that what Student Council is for?"
Ryan shrugged, "I don't know. We've only met once, and all he wanted to talk to me about was football. I guess he just wants to relive his glory years."
Back in his day, Braddock was McKinley High's star athlete, and if one were to forget, there were a bunch of pictures of him in the trophy cases to remind us.
"Yeah, so much for--" Ryan was interrupted by a high, shrieking sound coming from the hallway. I nearly fell over when I saw that it was coming from Tracy.
"You just don't get it!" I screamed. this was the first time I'd ever raised my voice to Tracy. the group of freshmen at the table next to us got up and left. 'I know you don't understand what I'm going through, but this is what I need." My voice started to waver as I tried to fight back tears. "I thought it was over, but it isn't. He keeps sending me these texts."
"He what?" Tracy pursed her lips.
"He just..." I didn't have the energy to deal with Nate.
"Penny, I told you -- he's such a jerk," Diane said softly. "You don't owe him anything."
Tracy turned to Diane. "You know about Nate?"
"Of course she knows. But I don't want to talk about Nate right now. This Club, not dating -- this is what I want to do. And, even more important, it's what I need to do. Diane supports me. I wish you would, too."
Silence fell on the table. "Pen," Tracy said in a quiet voice. "I'm sorry if you think I'm not being supportive, but don't you see? She's just using you."
Diane flinched. "How can you say that? I'm not using Penny." She paused for a moment, took a deep breath, and looked directly at Tracy. "Why do you hate me so much?"
"I don't___"
"Yes, you do." Diane looked down at her half-eaten salad. "I don't know why, but you always have. I was hoping that the three of us could be friends, because I know how much you mean to Penny. there is no way I could be friends with Penny again without your .. . approval, I guess."
Tracy looked at Diane with complete incomprehension. I don't think she ever imagined Diane Monroe would look to her for anything, much less approval.
"I just. . !" Tracy looked upset. "I don't want you to take Penny away from me."
I looked at Tracy in horror. How could she think that? "Tracy, Diane isn't going to do that."
Diane hesitantly reached over and put her arm on Tracy's shoulder. "Do you think you could just give me a chance? Please?"
I reached over to Tracy. "You know I have to have you behind me."
Tracy shook her head. "I guess I could try . . . for Penny." Dianes face lit up. "But hold on a second." Tracy glared at Diane. "if you ever, I mean ever, pull that crap with Penny again, if you hurt her, you will not live long enough to regret it."
Diane nodded weakly. "I'd really like us to be friends, Tracy, I really would."
Tracy gave Diane an encouraging smile. "Yeah, well, knowing the history with my list, I guess it's only a matter of time before I join you guys on the dark side."
"Can I see your list?" Diane asked hesitantly.
Tracy paused a few seconds before she pulled it out of her bag. "Why not?"
"Oh, I know Paul Levine. He's a really nice guy," Diane offered.
I guessed this was as good a start as I could've hoped for in our new, three-way friendship.
Chapter Ten
AFTER FOUR YEARS OF BASICALLY ignoring each other, it surprised me how quickly Diane and I fell back into place. I assumed it would be awkward, but it wasn't. It was the Penny and Diane of old.
I was waiting for Diane at my locker at the end of the day when Ryan turned the corner, looking upset. He threw open his locker and started shoving books into his backpack with so much force I expected the strap to break.
I looked up and saw Diane approaching me with a smile on her face.
I kept looking between them. I knew they'd been speaking since the breakup, but I didn't want to find myself in the middle of it.
Ryan slammed his locker shut and nearly ran into me when he turned around.
"Sorry," he said.
"Um, that's okay!' I replied, Diane was nearly at our lockers. "Um, everything okay?"
"Huh?" He looked agitated. "I didn't do well on my Chem. Lab."
"Oh, okay." I didn't know what else to say to him. I'd never had trouble speaking with Ryan, but with Diane corning over, I felt like I was betraying her in a way.
"Hey, guys," Diane greeted us.
I noticed people in the hallways slowing down so they could watch Diane and Ryan.
Ryan and Diane noticed, too.
there was an awkward silence in our group as people were hovering, dissecting their every move. I just said the first thing that came to my mind. "Ryan didn't do well on his Chemistry Lab."
Ryan gave me a weird look.
"Sorry, I just..." I was embarrassed.
Diane rolled her eyes, "Like a B is hardly something to get bent out of shape about. Plus, aren't you getting extra credit or something for that student advisory thing?"
"What advisory thing?" I asked.
Ryan blushed. "it's nothing. Principal Braddock has asked some students to meet with him on a regular basis to give him a better sense of the concerns of the student body."
I was confused. "Isn't that what Student Council is for?"
Ryan shrugged, "I don't know. We've only met once, and all he wanted to talk to me about was football. I guess he just wants to relive his glory years."
Back in his day, Braddock was McKinley High's star athlete, and if one were to forget, there were a bunch of pictures of him in the trophy cases to remind us.
"Yeah, so much for--" Ryan was interrupted by a high, shrieking sound coming from the hallway. I nearly fell over when I saw that it was coming from Tracy.
