The Rocker That Loves Me
Page 37
Trembling fingers gently covered my lips. “You could never taint me, Shane. Never. I already knew about the girls. Lana wasn’t exactly unforthcoming about your background.”
I kissed her fingers and carefully pulled them away. “No, I didn’t think she would be.” Harper hadn’t cared about that and it only made me love her more. But it was the other things that I feared would leave her sickened by me. “When I was a kid… I was abused.”
Violet eyes darkened. “Like Emmie?” she whispered.
I closed my eyes and shook my head. “No, baby, not like Emmie.”
I still held onto her fingers, so I knew when she realized what kind of abuse I was alluding too. The warmth seemed to seep from her hand, the tips starting to tremble. Slowly, I opened my eyes to meet her gaze. The tears building in her sweet gaze tore me apart, her quivering chin breaking my heart.
“Wh-who?”
“My stepdad.”
A sob escaped her and I pulled her against my chest. “No,” she whispered. “No. I… I’m sorry!” I waited for her disgust but it never came. At least not disgust for me.
Over the next hour we talked about my past. For the first time in my life I told the whole story, something I hadn’t even told Drake and Emmie. It was hard, for both of us, but we held each other as I got it all out. How Rusty had come to my room one night when Drake was gone for a week at band camp. The pain and humiliation of that horrible night…
“I hate to even touch myself,” I whispered into her hair. “My hands are rough, like his were.”
“So…” She paused and cleared her tear clogged throat. “You’ve never..?”
I shook my head. “Never.”
Slowly, she raised her head. Her glasses were streaked with tears, and she took them off, tossing them on the bedside table. I watched, a little anxious as she moved to sit on the edge of the bed. Her hands combed through her long, caramel hair, and a shaky sigh escaped her. For a long moment she sat there, not moving, not speaking, and I grew worried that I had killed her desire for me.
But then she reached for the edges of her camisole and pulled it over her head, leaving her naked. When she turned around to face me, her eyes were bright with determination…and passion. “I want to erase all of those memories for you. I want to take away the pain.”
Relief washed over me and I pulled her back into my arms. “You do that every time you are in my arms.”
“Then I will have to make sure I never leave them.” Her lips caught mine in perhaps the gentlest kiss we had ever shared. It took my breath away.
The kiss lasted forever, but I didn’t want it to ever end.
Silky fingertips traced over my skin from my face to my waist, learning me like I had tried to learn her. When she broke the kiss, I felt lost for a moment before those hot, damp lips kissed a path down to my chest. Lips like satin settled over my heart, leaving me breathless for another reason altogether. Violet eyes rose to meet mine as she kissed my heart again. Just as she had given me her trust last night, I could see that she was giving me something even more special in this moment.
They weren’t the words that I wanted to hear, but this would do. Seeing the love shining at me from those purple depths would definitely do!
Harper let her kiss trail lower, her little tongue dipping for a second into my naval, making me aware that she was indeed learning what I liked. Her perfect little tits brushed over my thighs, the hard nipples combing through the rough hair on my legs. Silky hair tickled across my abdomen as her head traveled lower, and I couldn’t hold back the groan when her hot breath whispered over the head of my aching dick.
I reached for her hair, pulling it to one side so I could see her face as she kissed the tip of my weeping cock then slid her tongue down the length. Fuck! Could there ever be a sexier sight than this girl sucking on my cock?
When she reached the base, she sucked my balls into her mouth. There was a delicate pop as she released them carefully. “I want to kiss your hurt away.”
All I could do was nod because my throat was suddenly too dry, too tight. There was no way of describing this moment between us. Sweet. Beautiful. Full of love and, yes, passion. But those words couldn’t fully describe the feeling in my heart as she lowered her head and took me into her mouth. It couldn’t come close to explaining how in awe I was. Harper kissed every inch of my cock, kissed and licked my balls until I didn’t know if I was even still breathing.
She paused and took hold of my right hand. Her lips kissed my palm, the thick calluses left on my thumb from years of playing the guitar. I jerked as she guided my hand to my dick and cupped my fingers around the shaft.
“Look at me, Shane,” she instructed in that soft, sweet voice of hers. “Don’t look away.”
The first guided stroke made me a little less hard, just a little. I wanted to look away, to let go of my dick, but her hold on me was stronger than those needs. Her fingers kept their firm yet gentle hold on mine and increased the pace of our strokes. That sexy as sin mouth lowered over the tip, and I went completely rock hard once more.
The sweetness of the moment was still there, but as she sucked me and guided me to jack the shaft of my dick, I went mindless. It felt so good, so fucking good. The pace was too slow and I increased it without her help, without her hand holding mine. I tightened my fist, pumping harder into the hot cavern of her mouth. My dick grew thicker and longer in my hand, and still I didn’t slow the pace.
Harper raised her head and kissed me, holding on to my shoulders as I jerked myself off for the first time in my life.
I could feel the release building, and with a shout of her name I exploded. It sprayed over her stomach, but she didn’t move away. Instead, she deepened the kiss, rubbing her stomach against mine as she spread my release over us both. We slid together perfectly and without even thinking about it, I thrust my still hard dick deep inside of her.
“Yes!” she cried, her head tossed back. Her hair flew back over her shoulders, leaving it wild and untamed. So fucking sexy! “Harder!” she commanded.
I sat up with her still in my arms, my dick deep inside her tight pussy. Her arms held on to my shoulders, and I cupped her perfect ass as I thrust faster. Her muscles contracted around my cock, letting me know that she was getting close. She was so hot, so tight, and I needed her to come for me before I could let myself join her.
I licked my finger and then skimmed it down her ass before gently thrusting it into her most forbidden of passages. Every muscle in her body seemed to contract, and I was rewarded with her pussy convulsing as she came apart in my arms.
I kissed her fingers and carefully pulled them away. “No, I didn’t think she would be.” Harper hadn’t cared about that and it only made me love her more. But it was the other things that I feared would leave her sickened by me. “When I was a kid… I was abused.”
Violet eyes darkened. “Like Emmie?” she whispered.
I closed my eyes and shook my head. “No, baby, not like Emmie.”
I still held onto her fingers, so I knew when she realized what kind of abuse I was alluding too. The warmth seemed to seep from her hand, the tips starting to tremble. Slowly, I opened my eyes to meet her gaze. The tears building in her sweet gaze tore me apart, her quivering chin breaking my heart.
“Wh-who?”
“My stepdad.”
A sob escaped her and I pulled her against my chest. “No,” she whispered. “No. I… I’m sorry!” I waited for her disgust but it never came. At least not disgust for me.
Over the next hour we talked about my past. For the first time in my life I told the whole story, something I hadn’t even told Drake and Emmie. It was hard, for both of us, but we held each other as I got it all out. How Rusty had come to my room one night when Drake was gone for a week at band camp. The pain and humiliation of that horrible night…
“I hate to even touch myself,” I whispered into her hair. “My hands are rough, like his were.”
“So…” She paused and cleared her tear clogged throat. “You’ve never..?”
I shook my head. “Never.”
Slowly, she raised her head. Her glasses were streaked with tears, and she took them off, tossing them on the bedside table. I watched, a little anxious as she moved to sit on the edge of the bed. Her hands combed through her long, caramel hair, and a shaky sigh escaped her. For a long moment she sat there, not moving, not speaking, and I grew worried that I had killed her desire for me.
But then she reached for the edges of her camisole and pulled it over her head, leaving her naked. When she turned around to face me, her eyes were bright with determination…and passion. “I want to erase all of those memories for you. I want to take away the pain.”
Relief washed over me and I pulled her back into my arms. “You do that every time you are in my arms.”
“Then I will have to make sure I never leave them.” Her lips caught mine in perhaps the gentlest kiss we had ever shared. It took my breath away.
The kiss lasted forever, but I didn’t want it to ever end.
Silky fingertips traced over my skin from my face to my waist, learning me like I had tried to learn her. When she broke the kiss, I felt lost for a moment before those hot, damp lips kissed a path down to my chest. Lips like satin settled over my heart, leaving me breathless for another reason altogether. Violet eyes rose to meet mine as she kissed my heart again. Just as she had given me her trust last night, I could see that she was giving me something even more special in this moment.
They weren’t the words that I wanted to hear, but this would do. Seeing the love shining at me from those purple depths would definitely do!
Harper let her kiss trail lower, her little tongue dipping for a second into my naval, making me aware that she was indeed learning what I liked. Her perfect little tits brushed over my thighs, the hard nipples combing through the rough hair on my legs. Silky hair tickled across my abdomen as her head traveled lower, and I couldn’t hold back the groan when her hot breath whispered over the head of my aching dick.
I reached for her hair, pulling it to one side so I could see her face as she kissed the tip of my weeping cock then slid her tongue down the length. Fuck! Could there ever be a sexier sight than this girl sucking on my cock?
When she reached the base, she sucked my balls into her mouth. There was a delicate pop as she released them carefully. “I want to kiss your hurt away.”
All I could do was nod because my throat was suddenly too dry, too tight. There was no way of describing this moment between us. Sweet. Beautiful. Full of love and, yes, passion. But those words couldn’t fully describe the feeling in my heart as she lowered her head and took me into her mouth. It couldn’t come close to explaining how in awe I was. Harper kissed every inch of my cock, kissed and licked my balls until I didn’t know if I was even still breathing.
She paused and took hold of my right hand. Her lips kissed my palm, the thick calluses left on my thumb from years of playing the guitar. I jerked as she guided my hand to my dick and cupped my fingers around the shaft.
“Look at me, Shane,” she instructed in that soft, sweet voice of hers. “Don’t look away.”
The first guided stroke made me a little less hard, just a little. I wanted to look away, to let go of my dick, but her hold on me was stronger than those needs. Her fingers kept their firm yet gentle hold on mine and increased the pace of our strokes. That sexy as sin mouth lowered over the tip, and I went completely rock hard once more.
The sweetness of the moment was still there, but as she sucked me and guided me to jack the shaft of my dick, I went mindless. It felt so good, so fucking good. The pace was too slow and I increased it without her help, without her hand holding mine. I tightened my fist, pumping harder into the hot cavern of her mouth. My dick grew thicker and longer in my hand, and still I didn’t slow the pace.
Harper raised her head and kissed me, holding on to my shoulders as I jerked myself off for the first time in my life.
I could feel the release building, and with a shout of her name I exploded. It sprayed over her stomach, but she didn’t move away. Instead, she deepened the kiss, rubbing her stomach against mine as she spread my release over us both. We slid together perfectly and without even thinking about it, I thrust my still hard dick deep inside of her.
“Yes!” she cried, her head tossed back. Her hair flew back over her shoulders, leaving it wild and untamed. So fucking sexy! “Harder!” she commanded.
I sat up with her still in my arms, my dick deep inside her tight pussy. Her arms held on to my shoulders, and I cupped her perfect ass as I thrust faster. Her muscles contracted around my cock, letting me know that she was getting close. She was so hot, so tight, and I needed her to come for me before I could let myself join her.
I licked my finger and then skimmed it down her ass before gently thrusting it into her most forbidden of passages. Every muscle in her body seemed to contract, and I was rewarded with her pussy convulsing as she came apart in my arms.
