Trying Not to Love You
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Hailey walked out of the bathroom, shaking her head. "I don't know why you stay with that asshat, Kenzie."
"He never used to be like that."
When I woke up the next morning, everyone was still sleeping. I decided I would make breakfast, since I bailed on them early last night. I looked around the place, and it surprised me that the house was actually fairly clean. I thought there would be a giant mess to clean up. At least now, I didn't have to tip the housekeepers any extra.
As I was making the last of the pancakes, Hunter walked into the kitchen with some girl. He walked her to the front door, and then came back to the kitchen. How did he turn his feelings for me off and on like that? Not that it mattered but still, I could not figure it out.
Hunter grabbed a bottle of water out of the fridge and asked, "Need any help, CC?"
"Nope, I'm good." Yeah, I want you to explain to me what you were doing with her!
"Alright." He went back towards his room, but then stopped before he opened the door. "Did Dominic ever show up last night?"
I pulled the last pancake out of the frying pan and put it on a plate. "Yeah, but not for long."
He shook his head at me, "What did he do this time?"
"I don't want to talk about it with you." He was the last person I wanted to talk to right now; let alone talk about Dominic.
"Fair enough. I'm going to pack up all my stuff." He went into his room, and I did not see him again until we were all about to leave.
Everyone else, including the girl that Cooper had hooked up with, made his or her way downstairs to have breakfast, and talk about what Hailey and I missed last night. After we ate and cleaned up, we all went to pack and get ready to head home.
As Jaylinn and I were walking out to my car to put our bags in the trunk, Cooper came up behind me and hugged me. "Thanks again for throwing us the party. We love you, lil' sis."
"Love y'all too; I'm glad y'all had fun. You know, it's not easy to surprise you and Mase."
Nodding his head, "We had a blast. Have you seen Mason or Hailey?"
"Not since breakfast." Jaylinn answered.
Shutting the door to his truck, Hunter stepped over to us. "You know, she did get her chocolate milk this morning. I wonder if she is getting Mason's…."
I punched him in the arm, and started yelling. "Stop! Just stop. I don't want to hear about that shit, jackass."
While Hunter and Cooper were laughing their asses off, Hailey and Mason walked out of the house, both with big-ass grins on their faces.
Shaking my head, I walked over to the driver's side of my car and got in, while Jaylinn got in the passenger side, and we took off for home.
When I got home Sunday afternoon, I was still pissed off at Dominic for the way he acted last night. He tried calling me all morning, but I kept sending his calls to voicemail. Around dinnertime, my mom yelled up the stairs to tell me that Dominic was here. Sighing, I got up and went downstairs to find out what he wanted.
He was standing by the front door, so I walked over and stood in front of him. "What do you want? Have you not noticed I have been avoiding your calls all day?"
He looked over my shoulder and then back at me. "Can we go out front and talk?"
I turned around to see Cooper and Hunter looking at us from the kitchen, so I turned back to Dominic and nodded.
We sat down on the porch swing. Dominic ran his hand threw his hair, and looked over at me. "Look, I know I f**ked up last night Kenzie. I shouldn't have left like that. I'm sorry. I just wanted to spend some alone time with you." He let out a loud sigh. "I don't get to see you every day anymore, and I'm frustrated. We've been together for a year now. I thought you would be ready to take that next step. Now that we don't see each other as much as we did, I just miss you. I want to feel close with you."
I knew it; I knew this would happen. This is why I had told Dominic before we started dating that he would have to wait until I thought the time was right. I was not going to whore myself out. I saw what my brothers did to all the girls they messed around with and I did not want to be one of those girls.
"So, because I'm not putting out, or we aren't messing around, you're going to act like an ass**le? That's f**ked Dominic. You said you would wait until I was ready, and if you can't accept that, then you need to leave."
"I'm not leaving MacKenzie. You're mine." He pulled me over to him, wrapped his arm around my shoulder and then kissed the side of my head. "I love you."
"Well then, you need to wait, and respect what I want. I told you I wanted to wait. You said you would wait."
Sighing, he said, "I've waited this long. What's a little bit longer, right?"
I looked up into his eyes. "Right."
He kissed me lightly on the lips. "Look, I have to get on the road. I have practice tomorrow morning."
We walked over to his car, and I gave him a hug and kiss, "Okay, I'll see you next weekend."
Dominic sat in his car, and slid on his sunglasses. "Love you."
I waved, and started back towards the house.
Did I love Dominic? Yes. Was I in love with him? No, I don't think so. Would I ever truly love him? Maybe, one day I would. Dominic was my first serious boyfriend. I didn't seriously date anyone because everyone in school knew my brothers; no one messed with my brothers, no one. When I was in seventh grade, I had a crush on this boy Ryan. We started going out, mostly talking on the phone and going to the movies occasionally. Right before winter break, he said he did not want to go out anymore. Ryan broke my heart, and, at thirteen, I thought my life was over. My brothers found out about what happened, and when we went back to school a week later, Ryan had a broken nose and two black eyes. To this day, when I see him, he will look the other way, or cross the street if he sees me coming. I asked my brothers what they did to him, and they always said they did not know anything about it.
Just when I was heading back upstairs to my room to take a nap, I heard Cooper talking to Hunter. "Dude, you better look out for my sister while you guys are away at school. I don't like that ass**le."
"I know. I don't like him either. I'll keep her safe."
3
Over the next few days, I was busy packing up everything I was bringing with me to Old Dominion, and doing some last minute shopping with my mom. I was both nervous and excited to start this part of my life.
Friday afternoon rolled around, and I had just finished packing my last box when Hailey came into my room. "Are you ready, Kenzie?"
"He never used to be like that."
When I woke up the next morning, everyone was still sleeping. I decided I would make breakfast, since I bailed on them early last night. I looked around the place, and it surprised me that the house was actually fairly clean. I thought there would be a giant mess to clean up. At least now, I didn't have to tip the housekeepers any extra.
As I was making the last of the pancakes, Hunter walked into the kitchen with some girl. He walked her to the front door, and then came back to the kitchen. How did he turn his feelings for me off and on like that? Not that it mattered but still, I could not figure it out.
Hunter grabbed a bottle of water out of the fridge and asked, "Need any help, CC?"
"Nope, I'm good." Yeah, I want you to explain to me what you were doing with her!
"Alright." He went back towards his room, but then stopped before he opened the door. "Did Dominic ever show up last night?"
I pulled the last pancake out of the frying pan and put it on a plate. "Yeah, but not for long."
He shook his head at me, "What did he do this time?"
"I don't want to talk about it with you." He was the last person I wanted to talk to right now; let alone talk about Dominic.
"Fair enough. I'm going to pack up all my stuff." He went into his room, and I did not see him again until we were all about to leave.
Everyone else, including the girl that Cooper had hooked up with, made his or her way downstairs to have breakfast, and talk about what Hailey and I missed last night. After we ate and cleaned up, we all went to pack and get ready to head home.
As Jaylinn and I were walking out to my car to put our bags in the trunk, Cooper came up behind me and hugged me. "Thanks again for throwing us the party. We love you, lil' sis."
"Love y'all too; I'm glad y'all had fun. You know, it's not easy to surprise you and Mase."
Nodding his head, "We had a blast. Have you seen Mason or Hailey?"
"Not since breakfast." Jaylinn answered.
Shutting the door to his truck, Hunter stepped over to us. "You know, she did get her chocolate milk this morning. I wonder if she is getting Mason's…."
I punched him in the arm, and started yelling. "Stop! Just stop. I don't want to hear about that shit, jackass."
While Hunter and Cooper were laughing their asses off, Hailey and Mason walked out of the house, both with big-ass grins on their faces.
Shaking my head, I walked over to the driver's side of my car and got in, while Jaylinn got in the passenger side, and we took off for home.
When I got home Sunday afternoon, I was still pissed off at Dominic for the way he acted last night. He tried calling me all morning, but I kept sending his calls to voicemail. Around dinnertime, my mom yelled up the stairs to tell me that Dominic was here. Sighing, I got up and went downstairs to find out what he wanted.
He was standing by the front door, so I walked over and stood in front of him. "What do you want? Have you not noticed I have been avoiding your calls all day?"
He looked over my shoulder and then back at me. "Can we go out front and talk?"
I turned around to see Cooper and Hunter looking at us from the kitchen, so I turned back to Dominic and nodded.
We sat down on the porch swing. Dominic ran his hand threw his hair, and looked over at me. "Look, I know I f**ked up last night Kenzie. I shouldn't have left like that. I'm sorry. I just wanted to spend some alone time with you." He let out a loud sigh. "I don't get to see you every day anymore, and I'm frustrated. We've been together for a year now. I thought you would be ready to take that next step. Now that we don't see each other as much as we did, I just miss you. I want to feel close with you."
I knew it; I knew this would happen. This is why I had told Dominic before we started dating that he would have to wait until I thought the time was right. I was not going to whore myself out. I saw what my brothers did to all the girls they messed around with and I did not want to be one of those girls.
"So, because I'm not putting out, or we aren't messing around, you're going to act like an ass**le? That's f**ked Dominic. You said you would wait until I was ready, and if you can't accept that, then you need to leave."
"I'm not leaving MacKenzie. You're mine." He pulled me over to him, wrapped his arm around my shoulder and then kissed the side of my head. "I love you."
"Well then, you need to wait, and respect what I want. I told you I wanted to wait. You said you would wait."
Sighing, he said, "I've waited this long. What's a little bit longer, right?"
I looked up into his eyes. "Right."
He kissed me lightly on the lips. "Look, I have to get on the road. I have practice tomorrow morning."
We walked over to his car, and I gave him a hug and kiss, "Okay, I'll see you next weekend."
Dominic sat in his car, and slid on his sunglasses. "Love you."
I waved, and started back towards the house.
Did I love Dominic? Yes. Was I in love with him? No, I don't think so. Would I ever truly love him? Maybe, one day I would. Dominic was my first serious boyfriend. I didn't seriously date anyone because everyone in school knew my brothers; no one messed with my brothers, no one. When I was in seventh grade, I had a crush on this boy Ryan. We started going out, mostly talking on the phone and going to the movies occasionally. Right before winter break, he said he did not want to go out anymore. Ryan broke my heart, and, at thirteen, I thought my life was over. My brothers found out about what happened, and when we went back to school a week later, Ryan had a broken nose and two black eyes. To this day, when I see him, he will look the other way, or cross the street if he sees me coming. I asked my brothers what they did to him, and they always said they did not know anything about it.
Just when I was heading back upstairs to my room to take a nap, I heard Cooper talking to Hunter. "Dude, you better look out for my sister while you guys are away at school. I don't like that ass**le."
"I know. I don't like him either. I'll keep her safe."
3
Over the next few days, I was busy packing up everything I was bringing with me to Old Dominion, and doing some last minute shopping with my mom. I was both nervous and excited to start this part of my life.
Friday afternoon rolled around, and I had just finished packing my last box when Hailey came into my room. "Are you ready, Kenzie?"
