Trying to Score
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“So that’s a good excuse?!”
Lucas stood up and started pacing the kitchen. “I know it isn’t, but you have to know I wouldn’t have done it if I wasn’t. Allison came on to me, and I was so horny and I missed you. I was so drunk that when she kissed me, I kissed her back. After that I don’t remember anything. All I remember from that night is waking up and seeing you look at me the way you are now.”
Fallon’s eyes filled with tears as she began breathing hard. Guilt washed over Lucas as he started to feel the exact same way he did the day everything went down. He never wanted any of this to happen. He thought he had lost everything when she left, and in all reality he did. He lost his love, and his baby.
He could never get those years back.
“I’m sorry Fallon, really I am. I never meant to hurt you, and I’m sorry it took so long for me to tell you that. But you have to believe that I’m not going anywhere now that I know Aiden is here. You and I may never see eye to eye, or may never get back what we had, but I will have a relationship with my son.”
A tear leaked over Fallon’s face and it killed Lucas to watch. He wanted to wrap her up in his arms and kiss the pain away. He just wanted to hold her, be her rock again, but he knew she wouldn’t let him.
He watched as Fallon cried silently, not knowing what to do or say. After a few minutes, Fallon looked over at him as the tears dried against her cheeks and said, “I hope you know that what you’re asking for is for forever. ‘Cause I’ll be damned if you gonna come into my baby’s life and twine yourself into his life and then just rip yourself away. I won’t let you do it to him.”
“I know that and I won’t.”
“Yeah, well you did it to me.”
“And I regret it every day,” Lucas answered wholeheartedly. Fallon looked down at her hands, moving her fingers along the inside of her wrist.
“And you still want him?” she asked quietly.
“Fallon I still want you, and when you are ready to let go of what I did to you, I’ll be standing here waiting. And, yes, I want him like I want to breathe. I love him already.”
“I don’t believe you,” she whispered, “I just don’t trust you.”
Lucas took in a deep breath, “Then I’ll have to prove it to you,” he said before letting out a whoosh of breath. “But that’s not the question.”
“What is?” she asked sadly. It pulled at his heart strings, but he had to know.
“When are you going to tell Aiden I’m his dad?”
Chapter 12
Fallon’s heart banged against her chest as Lucas looked down at her. She hadn’t even thought about that. When was she gonna tell Aiden Lucas was his dad? How does one go about doing that? Is there a book or a movie that she could watch that would help her tell Aiden?
Would he be mad?
Would he hate her?
Would he understand?
Would he want to live with Lucas?
Would he love Lucas more than her?
Fallon’s heart hurt. She was so scared, so afraid of the unknown that she was seriously thinking of running. She never ran from a problem, she had learned not to after leaving Lucas. She always stood up to it by being the biggest bitch in the world, but right now Lucas scared the living shit out of her.
“I don’t know,” she answered sadly as she leaned against the back of her kitchen chair.
She felt like she was going to cry. His apology hurt because it wasn’t closure. He couldn’t give her a reason — except for the fact that he was drunk — for why he had cheated on her. Fallon wanted to know what she did wrong, how she could have kept him from cheating on her. Was she not good in bed? Did she not please him? Did she not love him the way he needed to be loved? What? What did she do wrong?
“I haven’t thought that far,” she added after moment when she felt his gaze on hers.
“Well maybe you should, because I have to tell my mom, and you can only imagine how that’s going to go,” he answered with a nervous smile.
Fallon smiled. She had loved Molly Brooks like she was her own mother. The woman was a saint, and the most beautiful person inside and out. She believed in true love, and knew that there was only one man for every woman. Hers was James, and she always said Lucas was Fallon’s.
Fallon used to believe her.
“Can we give it a week or so? Maybe after his birthday?”
Lucas shook his head. “I want my mom to come to his birthday party.”
Fallon nodded. Was she really ready for the wrath of Molly Brooks? Molly was fiercely protective over Lucas, which after losing her husband who could blame her? Fallon was the same way over Aiden and totally understood Molly’s love for her son, but could she really handle how Molly would act towards her? She wasn’t bound to be nice to Fallon, hell, Fallon was surprised Lucas was being as nice as he was. She was sure he would be furious, throwing things, cussing her out, everything short of knocking her out was what she expected from him. Maybe Molly would surprise her, and not try to kill Fallon, but who would blame her if she did. Fallon’s mom would kill anyone that took Aiden from her…
Fallon took in a sharp breath.
She had to tell her family.
Oh no, her dad was gonna kill Lucas and her mother was gonna be so upset. Oh shit, this was gonna be bad.
“What’s wrong?”
Fallon looked up at Lucas, horror all over her face. “My dad is gonna murder you.”
Lucas stood up and started pacing the kitchen. “I know it isn’t, but you have to know I wouldn’t have done it if I wasn’t. Allison came on to me, and I was so horny and I missed you. I was so drunk that when she kissed me, I kissed her back. After that I don’t remember anything. All I remember from that night is waking up and seeing you look at me the way you are now.”
Fallon’s eyes filled with tears as she began breathing hard. Guilt washed over Lucas as he started to feel the exact same way he did the day everything went down. He never wanted any of this to happen. He thought he had lost everything when she left, and in all reality he did. He lost his love, and his baby.
He could never get those years back.
“I’m sorry Fallon, really I am. I never meant to hurt you, and I’m sorry it took so long for me to tell you that. But you have to believe that I’m not going anywhere now that I know Aiden is here. You and I may never see eye to eye, or may never get back what we had, but I will have a relationship with my son.”
A tear leaked over Fallon’s face and it killed Lucas to watch. He wanted to wrap her up in his arms and kiss the pain away. He just wanted to hold her, be her rock again, but he knew she wouldn’t let him.
He watched as Fallon cried silently, not knowing what to do or say. After a few minutes, Fallon looked over at him as the tears dried against her cheeks and said, “I hope you know that what you’re asking for is for forever. ‘Cause I’ll be damned if you gonna come into my baby’s life and twine yourself into his life and then just rip yourself away. I won’t let you do it to him.”
“I know that and I won’t.”
“Yeah, well you did it to me.”
“And I regret it every day,” Lucas answered wholeheartedly. Fallon looked down at her hands, moving her fingers along the inside of her wrist.
“And you still want him?” she asked quietly.
“Fallon I still want you, and when you are ready to let go of what I did to you, I’ll be standing here waiting. And, yes, I want him like I want to breathe. I love him already.”
“I don’t believe you,” she whispered, “I just don’t trust you.”
Lucas took in a deep breath, “Then I’ll have to prove it to you,” he said before letting out a whoosh of breath. “But that’s not the question.”
“What is?” she asked sadly. It pulled at his heart strings, but he had to know.
“When are you going to tell Aiden I’m his dad?”
Chapter 12
Fallon’s heart banged against her chest as Lucas looked down at her. She hadn’t even thought about that. When was she gonna tell Aiden Lucas was his dad? How does one go about doing that? Is there a book or a movie that she could watch that would help her tell Aiden?
Would he be mad?
Would he hate her?
Would he understand?
Would he want to live with Lucas?
Would he love Lucas more than her?
Fallon’s heart hurt. She was so scared, so afraid of the unknown that she was seriously thinking of running. She never ran from a problem, she had learned not to after leaving Lucas. She always stood up to it by being the biggest bitch in the world, but right now Lucas scared the living shit out of her.
“I don’t know,” she answered sadly as she leaned against the back of her kitchen chair.
She felt like she was going to cry. His apology hurt because it wasn’t closure. He couldn’t give her a reason — except for the fact that he was drunk — for why he had cheated on her. Fallon wanted to know what she did wrong, how she could have kept him from cheating on her. Was she not good in bed? Did she not please him? Did she not love him the way he needed to be loved? What? What did she do wrong?
“I haven’t thought that far,” she added after moment when she felt his gaze on hers.
“Well maybe you should, because I have to tell my mom, and you can only imagine how that’s going to go,” he answered with a nervous smile.
Fallon smiled. She had loved Molly Brooks like she was her own mother. The woman was a saint, and the most beautiful person inside and out. She believed in true love, and knew that there was only one man for every woman. Hers was James, and she always said Lucas was Fallon’s.
Fallon used to believe her.
“Can we give it a week or so? Maybe after his birthday?”
Lucas shook his head. “I want my mom to come to his birthday party.”
Fallon nodded. Was she really ready for the wrath of Molly Brooks? Molly was fiercely protective over Lucas, which after losing her husband who could blame her? Fallon was the same way over Aiden and totally understood Molly’s love for her son, but could she really handle how Molly would act towards her? She wasn’t bound to be nice to Fallon, hell, Fallon was surprised Lucas was being as nice as he was. She was sure he would be furious, throwing things, cussing her out, everything short of knocking her out was what she expected from him. Maybe Molly would surprise her, and not try to kill Fallon, but who would blame her if she did. Fallon’s mom would kill anyone that took Aiden from her…
Fallon took in a sharp breath.
She had to tell her family.
Oh no, her dad was gonna kill Lucas and her mother was gonna be so upset. Oh shit, this was gonna be bad.
“What’s wrong?”
Fallon looked up at Lucas, horror all over her face. “My dad is gonna murder you.”
