Waiting For Nick
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"I don't disagree with the sentiment," she murmured. "Only with your method. This is going to sting some."
More than some, he discovered, and swore ripely. "I wish to hell you'd go away."
"Well, I'm not." She tried to comfort herself with the thought that the cuts on his face weren't deep enough for stitches. Then she saw his hands. White-hot fury erupted inside her. "Your hands. Look what you've done to your hands. You idiot. Why can't you use your head instead of your glands?"
She could have wept with grief. His beautiful, talented artist's hands were torn and bleeding. Dark, ugly bruises had already formed, marring them, swelling them.
"They ran into his teeth a few times."
"Isn't that just like you? Isn't that just typical? Nicholas LeBeck's first rule of order. If you can't solve the problem, batter it down." She was wrapping cold cloths around his hands as she spoke. "You could have called Alex."
"Don't hassle me, Fred. You heard her. She isn't going to file charges."
"She's in the shelter, isn't she? She and the children?"
"And he just walks? Not this time." Experimentally Nick flexed his fingers. They were stiff and painful, but it was the torso Freddie had yet to see that was agonizing. "He tried to kill my brother once, and did less than six years for it. The system says he's rehabilitated, so he gets out and starts hammering on Maria. So, screw the system. My way works."
"He nearly killed you before." Her lips trembled as she rose. "He could have done it again."
"He didn't, did he? Now back off."
He dragged himself to his feet and limped into the kitchen. He managed to locate the aspirin quickly enough, but with his injured hands he found he couldn't pry off the lid.
Her own movements stiff from a different kind of pain, Freddie took the bottle from him. She opened it, set it on the counter for him, then poured him a glass of water.
"How far, Nick?" Her voice was controlled, too controlled. "How far do you want me to back off?"
He didn't turn, only stayed where he was, his hands braced on the counter, his body throbbing with a thousand hurts. "I can't talk about this now. If you want to do something for me, you'll go home. Leave me alone. I don't want you here."
"Fine. I should have remembered, the lone wolf prefers to slink off on his own to lick his wounds. I'll just leave you to it." As wounded as he now, she spun on her heel. She was halfway across the living room when Zack came in. Brushing an impatient hand over her damp cheek, she kept walking. "Be careful," she warned. "I think he's rabid."
"Freddie—" But she was moving fast, her heels already clattering on the stairs. Zack marched into the kitchen. "What did you do to make her cry?"
Nick only swore and dumped four aspirin on the counter. "Stay out of it." He winced as the water he swallowed burned his abused throat. "I'm not in the mood for company, Zack."
"You aren't getting company. Sit down, damn it, before you keel over."
That, at least, seemed like a reasonable idea. With careful movements, Nick lowered himself into a kitchen chair.
Standing back, Zack took a survey. Freddie had done some good, he supposed, but his brother still looked like the wrong end of a punching bag. "Did a number on you, didn't he?"
"He got in a few."
"Let's get what's left of that shirt off and take a look."
"I'm not much interested in seeing." But he couldn't drum up the energy to object as Zack began removing the torn material. Zack's slow, vicious oaths confirmed the worst. "That bad?"
"He got in more than a few. Damn it, Nick, did you have to go looking for trouble?"
"I didn't have to look far, did I?" He looked up then, met Zack's eyes coolly. "It was a long time coming. Now it's done."
Zack merely nodded, began to open cupboards. "Is that liniment still around here?"
"Someplace. Under the sink, maybe."
Once he located it, Zack came back to finish what Freddie had started. "You're going to feel worse tomorrow."
"Thanks, just what I needed to hear. Got a cigarette on you? I lost mine."
Zack took one out, lighted it, placed it between Nick's swollen fingers. "I hope he looks as bad as you."
"Oh, worse." The sour grin hurt. "A lot worse."
"That's something, then. I'm surprised you had the energy left to fight with Freddie."
"I wasn't fighting with her. I just wanted her out. She shouldn't have been around this. Any of it."
"Maybe not. But I'd say she can handle herself."
She was sure of it. It seemed clear after two days that Nick was determined to avoid her. Still licking his wounds, she imagined as she walked back from Nick's apartment yet again.
Still, she hadn't expected the locked door. Her only consolation was that Zack had assured her Nick was healing.
She was tired of worrying about him, she decided. And since work wasn't an option until his hands were better, she'd found other ways to fill her time.
She'd enjoyed taking toys over to the shelter more than anything else. Maria still seemed nervous and strained, but the children were already relaxing. The highlight of Freddie's day had been when the solemn-eyed Carlo smiled at her.
Time, she thought. They only needed time and care.
And what, she wondered, did Nick need? Apparently he didn't think it was Freddie Kimball. At least not at the moment. So she'd give him the distance he wanted right now. But sooner or later, she was going to get sick of standing back and waiting.
Love shouldn't be so complicated. She brooded, looking down at the sidewalk. It all had seemed so simple when she left home to come to New York. Everything she'd planned and hoped for had slowly come to be.
Now, because of some blip from his past, it was falling apart on her.
With a sigh, she opened the security door of her building. The sudden jab from behind had her stumbling. She would have fallen, if an arm hadn't come around her, jerking her back.
"Keep walking," the voice ordered. "And keep quiet. Feel that? It's a knife. You don't want me to use it."
Calm, she ordered herself. Don't panic. It was broad daylight. "There's money in my purse. You can have it."
More than some, he discovered, and swore ripely. "I wish to hell you'd go away."
"Well, I'm not." She tried to comfort herself with the thought that the cuts on his face weren't deep enough for stitches. Then she saw his hands. White-hot fury erupted inside her. "Your hands. Look what you've done to your hands. You idiot. Why can't you use your head instead of your glands?"
She could have wept with grief. His beautiful, talented artist's hands were torn and bleeding. Dark, ugly bruises had already formed, marring them, swelling them.
"They ran into his teeth a few times."
"Isn't that just like you? Isn't that just typical? Nicholas LeBeck's first rule of order. If you can't solve the problem, batter it down." She was wrapping cold cloths around his hands as she spoke. "You could have called Alex."
"Don't hassle me, Fred. You heard her. She isn't going to file charges."
"She's in the shelter, isn't she? She and the children?"
"And he just walks? Not this time." Experimentally Nick flexed his fingers. They were stiff and painful, but it was the torso Freddie had yet to see that was agonizing. "He tried to kill my brother once, and did less than six years for it. The system says he's rehabilitated, so he gets out and starts hammering on Maria. So, screw the system. My way works."
"He nearly killed you before." Her lips trembled as she rose. "He could have done it again."
"He didn't, did he? Now back off."
He dragged himself to his feet and limped into the kitchen. He managed to locate the aspirin quickly enough, but with his injured hands he found he couldn't pry off the lid.
Her own movements stiff from a different kind of pain, Freddie took the bottle from him. She opened it, set it on the counter for him, then poured him a glass of water.
"How far, Nick?" Her voice was controlled, too controlled. "How far do you want me to back off?"
He didn't turn, only stayed where he was, his hands braced on the counter, his body throbbing with a thousand hurts. "I can't talk about this now. If you want to do something for me, you'll go home. Leave me alone. I don't want you here."
"Fine. I should have remembered, the lone wolf prefers to slink off on his own to lick his wounds. I'll just leave you to it." As wounded as he now, she spun on her heel. She was halfway across the living room when Zack came in. Brushing an impatient hand over her damp cheek, she kept walking. "Be careful," she warned. "I think he's rabid."
"Freddie—" But she was moving fast, her heels already clattering on the stairs. Zack marched into the kitchen. "What did you do to make her cry?"
Nick only swore and dumped four aspirin on the counter. "Stay out of it." He winced as the water he swallowed burned his abused throat. "I'm not in the mood for company, Zack."
"You aren't getting company. Sit down, damn it, before you keel over."
That, at least, seemed like a reasonable idea. With careful movements, Nick lowered himself into a kitchen chair.
Standing back, Zack took a survey. Freddie had done some good, he supposed, but his brother still looked like the wrong end of a punching bag. "Did a number on you, didn't he?"
"He got in a few."
"Let's get what's left of that shirt off and take a look."
"I'm not much interested in seeing." But he couldn't drum up the energy to object as Zack began removing the torn material. Zack's slow, vicious oaths confirmed the worst. "That bad?"
"He got in more than a few. Damn it, Nick, did you have to go looking for trouble?"
"I didn't have to look far, did I?" He looked up then, met Zack's eyes coolly. "It was a long time coming. Now it's done."
Zack merely nodded, began to open cupboards. "Is that liniment still around here?"
"Someplace. Under the sink, maybe."
Once he located it, Zack came back to finish what Freddie had started. "You're going to feel worse tomorrow."
"Thanks, just what I needed to hear. Got a cigarette on you? I lost mine."
Zack took one out, lighted it, placed it between Nick's swollen fingers. "I hope he looks as bad as you."
"Oh, worse." The sour grin hurt. "A lot worse."
"That's something, then. I'm surprised you had the energy left to fight with Freddie."
"I wasn't fighting with her. I just wanted her out. She shouldn't have been around this. Any of it."
"Maybe not. But I'd say she can handle herself."
She was sure of it. It seemed clear after two days that Nick was determined to avoid her. Still licking his wounds, she imagined as she walked back from Nick's apartment yet again.
Still, she hadn't expected the locked door. Her only consolation was that Zack had assured her Nick was healing.
She was tired of worrying about him, she decided. And since work wasn't an option until his hands were better, she'd found other ways to fill her time.
She'd enjoyed taking toys over to the shelter more than anything else. Maria still seemed nervous and strained, but the children were already relaxing. The highlight of Freddie's day had been when the solemn-eyed Carlo smiled at her.
Time, she thought. They only needed time and care.
And what, she wondered, did Nick need? Apparently he didn't think it was Freddie Kimball. At least not at the moment. So she'd give him the distance he wanted right now. But sooner or later, she was going to get sick of standing back and waiting.
Love shouldn't be so complicated. She brooded, looking down at the sidewalk. It all had seemed so simple when she left home to come to New York. Everything she'd planned and hoped for had slowly come to be.
Now, because of some blip from his past, it was falling apart on her.
With a sigh, she opened the security door of her building. The sudden jab from behind had her stumbling. She would have fallen, if an arm hadn't come around her, jerking her back.
"Keep walking," the voice ordered. "And keep quiet. Feel that? It's a knife. You don't want me to use it."
Calm, she ordered herself. Don't panic. It was broad daylight. "There's money in my purse. You can have it."
