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It was a wedding party, most of them on foot, surrounding the coach and horses. In it sat a girl, her dress long and elegant, like a thirties tea dress, and long blonde hair tied back simply with flowers. She was very, very young to Rosie’s eyes; early twenties, her face pink with unusual amounts of make-up and biting her lips with nervous delight. She sat between her parents: the father bald and wearing a ridiculous top hat, his forearms a dark hazel, his belly barely contained by his grey waistcoat, his face one huge smile; and the mother, anxious in fuchsia. Two little flower girls lay on the floor of the open coach, like white posies, their ballet-shod feet wriggling gleefully in the air, their bouquets discarded. Nobody was telling them off. Behind, Rosie could now see, was a smart Rolls-Royce, travelling very slowly, containing grandparents and older members of the party. And all around were laughing, happy people: some older, teenage bridesmaids, looking self-conscious and smoothing down their dresses; young men with stiff collars over sunburned necks and new number ones; fat ladies in big floral dresses and older men with hip flasks and lots of other children, some from the wedding party, some just there to join in the parade.
People came out of their houses to watch and shout good wishes, car horns honked, and the bells of the church tower at the other end of town started to ring out. Lilian emerged too, slowly and stiffly, leaning on a stick. Rosie was delighted to see the stick. Accepting that she needed help was Lilian’s worst problem by miles.
‘Look at this,’ said Rosie.
Lilian looked at the procession, but her dark eyes seemed misty and unfocused.
‘Yes, well, weddings. Overrated. Waste of time usually.’
‘What do you mean?’ said Rosie.
‘Nothing,’ said Lilian petulantly. ‘Waste of time, that’s all. Waste of everybody’s time.’
1943
They all got their call-up papers in the end, all except the eldest sons, the ones who’d own the land. They got to stay, though many of them didn’t want to, managing the land girls, the elderly workers, the itinerants. But nearly everyone else was off, one by one, household by household.
Margaret too was off to Derby, going to build munitions in a factory; boy-crazy and half mad with excitement at rooming with other girls and at last getting out of her family house, where as the eldest of six she rarely had a moment to herself.
‘You should come,’ she begged Lilian. ‘You must! You know, there are bands playing every night of the week, and the Forces boys through all the time. It’ll be parties and dancing, and we’ll be earning our own money too.’
Lilian couldn’t admit she was tempted. With the harvest over, the village had simply seemed to shut down; to get smaller and quieter as the pickers moved on and the men all left to go to war, and it was as if she was there by herself, tending what felt very much, at the age of seventeen, like a broken heart.
She’d seen Henry and Ida together, of course. That was how it seemed to be now; the girl wouldn’t let him alone for a minute. She’d pasted on a cheery smile when she’d seen him, and he’d looked confused, then been dragged away. He didn’t come in the shop for sweets any more, she noticed. She missed him hanging around and teasing her about her wild hair and the freckles she detested. Still. That was then. She worked hard, sat up late at night puzzling over the accounts; organised the coupons and weighed and measured and smiled all day at the little ones counting out sticky pennies, occasionally smacking a dirty, roguish hand that might sneak up over the slabs of peanut brittle that were placed temptingly on the bottom shelf.
Yes, she was tempted. She didn’t want to go through another year doing this, with no friends left in town, nothing to do, no more dances or parties. Nothing, really. And her brothers had spoken so often of the delights of the big city. So she told Margaret she’d think about it, which Margaret immediately took as a yes, and started planning how they would room together, and found her a job at the same factory. And with the resilience of youth, Lilian found that she did have something to look forward to after all.
That was before the telegram.
Her father was not a tall man, but that didn’t matter so much; he had always been so strong in himself, had never stopped or broken down when they’d lost their mother and he had to raise a girl and three boys by himself, or when war had broken out, although he had certainly been concerned: he remembered the last one. The strain of the boys fighting, the shop only just paying its way, all these things Terence senior handled with a bad joke, a smile, lighting a cigarette and carrying on.
But not today. When Tom, the wireless boy from the post office, was going through town on his bicycle, hardly anyone could look at him, waiting till he had passed before they turned their heads to see in which direction he was headed; sighing in relief when it was not their road or track. Tom hated his job with a passion, and as soon as he turned seventeen and could pass the medical he was going to join the air force and fly planes, he had decided.
Lilian, busy in the higher reaches, looking for a box of jellied fruits for a young man on leave to give to his sweetheart, hadn’t even noticed him stop by. Everyone else, she had been thinking that morning, still wrapped up in herself, everyone else had a sweetheart except for her. And she never would, unless she left this place.
She popped over at lunchtime to have some dinner with her da, to find him, unusually, sitting at the kitchen table. He wasn’t moving, or smoking, which was most unlike him. He didn’t even turn his head when she entered.
‘Da?’ she said. When he didn’t respond, even at the third time of asking, a cold grip of fear clutched at her, and she realised there was a feeling worse than seeing Henry Carr with Ida Delia at the dance. Far worse.
She spotted it immediately without quite realising what it signified – the ripped envelope, the typewritten sheet. Taking a deep breath, she felt herself go suddenly faint and, conscious she was wobbling, grabbed on to the back of a chair, then sat herself down, feeling her vision narrow and her head grow dazed.
‘Da,’ she said again, but he still hadn’t heard her. There was only one thing left to know: which? But she didn’t even have to read the telegram. She knew. It wouldn’t be Terence junior, so steady and thoughtful like her father; responsible, mature, considered. And it wouldn’t be Gordon, the youngest, who was a rascal, a troublemaker, who always managed to get himself out of any sticky situation with a bright grin and a hop and a skip and usually some blackmarket goodies. There wasn’t a German alive who could get the better of Gordon.
People came out of their houses to watch and shout good wishes, car horns honked, and the bells of the church tower at the other end of town started to ring out. Lilian emerged too, slowly and stiffly, leaning on a stick. Rosie was delighted to see the stick. Accepting that she needed help was Lilian’s worst problem by miles.
‘Look at this,’ said Rosie.
Lilian looked at the procession, but her dark eyes seemed misty and unfocused.
‘Yes, well, weddings. Overrated. Waste of time usually.’
‘What do you mean?’ said Rosie.
‘Nothing,’ said Lilian petulantly. ‘Waste of time, that’s all. Waste of everybody’s time.’
1943
They all got their call-up papers in the end, all except the eldest sons, the ones who’d own the land. They got to stay, though many of them didn’t want to, managing the land girls, the elderly workers, the itinerants. But nearly everyone else was off, one by one, household by household.
Margaret too was off to Derby, going to build munitions in a factory; boy-crazy and half mad with excitement at rooming with other girls and at last getting out of her family house, where as the eldest of six she rarely had a moment to herself.
‘You should come,’ she begged Lilian. ‘You must! You know, there are bands playing every night of the week, and the Forces boys through all the time. It’ll be parties and dancing, and we’ll be earning our own money too.’
Lilian couldn’t admit she was tempted. With the harvest over, the village had simply seemed to shut down; to get smaller and quieter as the pickers moved on and the men all left to go to war, and it was as if she was there by herself, tending what felt very much, at the age of seventeen, like a broken heart.
She’d seen Henry and Ida together, of course. That was how it seemed to be now; the girl wouldn’t let him alone for a minute. She’d pasted on a cheery smile when she’d seen him, and he’d looked confused, then been dragged away. He didn’t come in the shop for sweets any more, she noticed. She missed him hanging around and teasing her about her wild hair and the freckles she detested. Still. That was then. She worked hard, sat up late at night puzzling over the accounts; organised the coupons and weighed and measured and smiled all day at the little ones counting out sticky pennies, occasionally smacking a dirty, roguish hand that might sneak up over the slabs of peanut brittle that were placed temptingly on the bottom shelf.
Yes, she was tempted. She didn’t want to go through another year doing this, with no friends left in town, nothing to do, no more dances or parties. Nothing, really. And her brothers had spoken so often of the delights of the big city. So she told Margaret she’d think about it, which Margaret immediately took as a yes, and started planning how they would room together, and found her a job at the same factory. And with the resilience of youth, Lilian found that she did have something to look forward to after all.
That was before the telegram.
Her father was not a tall man, but that didn’t matter so much; he had always been so strong in himself, had never stopped or broken down when they’d lost their mother and he had to raise a girl and three boys by himself, or when war had broken out, although he had certainly been concerned: he remembered the last one. The strain of the boys fighting, the shop only just paying its way, all these things Terence senior handled with a bad joke, a smile, lighting a cigarette and carrying on.
But not today. When Tom, the wireless boy from the post office, was going through town on his bicycle, hardly anyone could look at him, waiting till he had passed before they turned their heads to see in which direction he was headed; sighing in relief when it was not their road or track. Tom hated his job with a passion, and as soon as he turned seventeen and could pass the medical he was going to join the air force and fly planes, he had decided.
Lilian, busy in the higher reaches, looking for a box of jellied fruits for a young man on leave to give to his sweetheart, hadn’t even noticed him stop by. Everyone else, she had been thinking that morning, still wrapped up in herself, everyone else had a sweetheart except for her. And she never would, unless she left this place.
She popped over at lunchtime to have some dinner with her da, to find him, unusually, sitting at the kitchen table. He wasn’t moving, or smoking, which was most unlike him. He didn’t even turn his head when she entered.
‘Da?’ she said. When he didn’t respond, even at the third time of asking, a cold grip of fear clutched at her, and she realised there was a feeling worse than seeing Henry Carr with Ida Delia at the dance. Far worse.
She spotted it immediately without quite realising what it signified – the ripped envelope, the typewritten sheet. Taking a deep breath, she felt herself go suddenly faint and, conscious she was wobbling, grabbed on to the back of a chair, then sat herself down, feeling her vision narrow and her head grow dazed.
‘Da,’ she said again, but he still hadn’t heard her. There was only one thing left to know: which? But she didn’t even have to read the telegram. She knew. It wouldn’t be Terence junior, so steady and thoughtful like her father; responsible, mature, considered. And it wouldn’t be Gordon, the youngest, who was a rascal, a troublemaker, who always managed to get himself out of any sticky situation with a bright grin and a hop and a skip and usually some blackmarket goodies. There wasn’t a German alive who could get the better of Gordon.
