What I Need
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I don’t need to be staring.
I sure as fuck don’t need to be getting hard right now.
I got options. Just need to pick one.
Simple.
Yeah . . .
Real fucking simple.
I breathe in deep again, letting it out slowly. And I do this staring at her.
Only at her.
And the more staring I do the more I start to notice, like how she seems to be out there dancing alone, not with another person or a group of friends she came with. People around her are keeping to themselves or appearing to be together, throwing their arms around each other or sharing looks. Acting friendly. Just not with her.
Riley isn’t meeting anyone’s eyes. She’s not trying to talk to anyone. She’s in her own little world.
She’s here alone.
He made her come to this shit alone.
Anger fills me. My jaw flexes while the muscles in my arms and shoulders start locking up.
My choice of options just grew by one.
Instead of charging through the crowd, which, no lie, is exactly what I want to be doing right now, I reach into the back pocket of my jeans and pull out my phone. I shoot out a quick text.
Me: Tell me he’s here.
Lifting my eyes, I watch as Riley pauses mid ass-shake, slaps her back pocket, tugs out her phone and brings it in front of her. Her head tilts down, then a second later it’s lifting and she’s searching all around where she’s standing, peering around people and standing taller. She finds me when she finally twists around, head first and then body following.
Her lips part. Her blue eyes go round, flames burning me up like they always do.
Riley starts moving my way and my eyes lower, first to her mouth, watching the slow smile twist across it and take shape.
She looks happy to see me. I shouldn’t put stock into that, but I do. It’s what I want.
Then my eyes keep dropping and I get full view of her tits. Her full, heavy, perfect fucking tits. Sitting high behind her tight white shirt and bouncing with her steps.
Jesus Christ.
My new friend has tits like that. And by the looks of it, she didn’t bother putting on a bra either.
What the fuck did I do in a previous life to deserve this kind of torture?
“Hey. I didn’t know you were coming to this,” Riley says, all sweet sounding when she reaches me. Sweat gathers on her brow and in the hollow dip in her throat. She shoves her phone away and questions, “Why are you standing all the way back here? Don’t you want to get closer so you can see the band?”
“Working,” I tell her, lifting my eyes before I punch a hole through my jeans. I tuck my phone into my back pocket, adding, “Trust me. I can see plenty from where I’m standing.”
Isn’t that the fucking truth.
Riley blinks, then looks to my chest. “You’re not wearing your uniform,” she observes.
I squint at her mouth.
I got what she said, but I can barely hear her over the music. I don’t like that.
I want to hear her.
“Come on.” Grabbing her elbow, I pull Riley with me to the back corner of the room, stopping beside the hallway that leads to the restrooms and crowding the wall.
It’s as far from the speakers as I can get her unless I take her outside, and I’m not sure I want to do that.
Only `cause I know I’ll want to leave with her. Meaning I absolutely want to do that.
Shoulder pressing to the wall, I release her elbow after tugging Riley close. I pull my arms across my chest. “Not typically something I wanna advertise when I’m staying undercover,” I say in response to her observation.
“Oh.” She looks up at me, smiling and lifting her shoulders with a jerk. “Cool,” she says.
I can see Riley better where we’re standing now. The hallway light is shining on her, making her skin glow.
I look her over.
She wearing more makeup than I’ve ever seen her in. Black lines her eyes and her lashes are darker. Thicker too.
I like that.
Her cheeks are flushed from the dancing she was doing. That combined with whatever she’s got on her face is hiding her freckles from me.
I don’t like that. But I don’t tell Riley. I keep looking.
Red lips, full and shiny. Cock sucking lips. I know that from experience.
Shit. Don’t go there. I focus on her eyes again.
Blue and black, fading out to grey. Like a storm coming . . .
“You totally still look like a cop,” Riley shares, jarring my focus. The corner of her mouth twitches. “You’re not fooling anyone, CJ Tully.”
My brows raise. “Yeah?”
She nods, laughing. “You look scary and pissed off. Smile a little.”
I don’t smile. Not even when she amps hers up and gives it to me, pairing it with another soft giggle.
I get straight to the point with her, because getting off point with Riley is going to lead to this shit getting even more complicated, and fuck, I’ve looked enough tonight to run the risk of major fucking complications.
Plus, she’s laughing. Smiling. Looking like she’s thinking the same things I’m thinking.
Get to the fucking point, Tully.
“Are you going to answer my question?” I ask.
Her brow furrows. “What question?”
“I asked you if he was here.”
“Oh.” Nodding, Riley looks behind her in the direction of the bar, then meets my eyes again. “Yeah, he went to get a drink. He doesn’t really want to be here. I kinda dragged him out.”
“Why?”
“Why what?”
“Why’d you need to drag him out?”
Riley tilts her head. “Because . . . he doesn’t really want to be here?” she repeats slowly, looking puzzled. “I just told you. He doesn’t like The Killers.”
“So?”
“So?”
“Yeah, babe. So.”
She straightens her head, but her eyes narrow as if she’s thinking hard. “You’ve lost me,” she shares.
“Forget it,” I mumble, looking away, knowing I got no business getting up in her shit the way I’m doing. I need to back off.
“No. What? Tell me.” Riley reaches out and places her hand on my forearm.
I look down and watch her black painted fingers wrap around and curl under. I feel them squeeze.
Our eyes lock.
“Tell me,” she pleads, looking close to begging for this.
I sure as fuck don’t need to be getting hard right now.
I got options. Just need to pick one.
Simple.
Yeah . . .
Real fucking simple.
I breathe in deep again, letting it out slowly. And I do this staring at her.
Only at her.
And the more staring I do the more I start to notice, like how she seems to be out there dancing alone, not with another person or a group of friends she came with. People around her are keeping to themselves or appearing to be together, throwing their arms around each other or sharing looks. Acting friendly. Just not with her.
Riley isn’t meeting anyone’s eyes. She’s not trying to talk to anyone. She’s in her own little world.
She’s here alone.
He made her come to this shit alone.
Anger fills me. My jaw flexes while the muscles in my arms and shoulders start locking up.
My choice of options just grew by one.
Instead of charging through the crowd, which, no lie, is exactly what I want to be doing right now, I reach into the back pocket of my jeans and pull out my phone. I shoot out a quick text.
Me: Tell me he’s here.
Lifting my eyes, I watch as Riley pauses mid ass-shake, slaps her back pocket, tugs out her phone and brings it in front of her. Her head tilts down, then a second later it’s lifting and she’s searching all around where she’s standing, peering around people and standing taller. She finds me when she finally twists around, head first and then body following.
Her lips part. Her blue eyes go round, flames burning me up like they always do.
Riley starts moving my way and my eyes lower, first to her mouth, watching the slow smile twist across it and take shape.
She looks happy to see me. I shouldn’t put stock into that, but I do. It’s what I want.
Then my eyes keep dropping and I get full view of her tits. Her full, heavy, perfect fucking tits. Sitting high behind her tight white shirt and bouncing with her steps.
Jesus Christ.
My new friend has tits like that. And by the looks of it, she didn’t bother putting on a bra either.
What the fuck did I do in a previous life to deserve this kind of torture?
“Hey. I didn’t know you were coming to this,” Riley says, all sweet sounding when she reaches me. Sweat gathers on her brow and in the hollow dip in her throat. She shoves her phone away and questions, “Why are you standing all the way back here? Don’t you want to get closer so you can see the band?”
“Working,” I tell her, lifting my eyes before I punch a hole through my jeans. I tuck my phone into my back pocket, adding, “Trust me. I can see plenty from where I’m standing.”
Isn’t that the fucking truth.
Riley blinks, then looks to my chest. “You’re not wearing your uniform,” she observes.
I squint at her mouth.
I got what she said, but I can barely hear her over the music. I don’t like that.
I want to hear her.
“Come on.” Grabbing her elbow, I pull Riley with me to the back corner of the room, stopping beside the hallway that leads to the restrooms and crowding the wall.
It’s as far from the speakers as I can get her unless I take her outside, and I’m not sure I want to do that.
Only `cause I know I’ll want to leave with her. Meaning I absolutely want to do that.
Shoulder pressing to the wall, I release her elbow after tugging Riley close. I pull my arms across my chest. “Not typically something I wanna advertise when I’m staying undercover,” I say in response to her observation.
“Oh.” She looks up at me, smiling and lifting her shoulders with a jerk. “Cool,” she says.
I can see Riley better where we’re standing now. The hallway light is shining on her, making her skin glow.
I look her over.
She wearing more makeup than I’ve ever seen her in. Black lines her eyes and her lashes are darker. Thicker too.
I like that.
Her cheeks are flushed from the dancing she was doing. That combined with whatever she’s got on her face is hiding her freckles from me.
I don’t like that. But I don’t tell Riley. I keep looking.
Red lips, full and shiny. Cock sucking lips. I know that from experience.
Shit. Don’t go there. I focus on her eyes again.
Blue and black, fading out to grey. Like a storm coming . . .
“You totally still look like a cop,” Riley shares, jarring my focus. The corner of her mouth twitches. “You’re not fooling anyone, CJ Tully.”
My brows raise. “Yeah?”
She nods, laughing. “You look scary and pissed off. Smile a little.”
I don’t smile. Not even when she amps hers up and gives it to me, pairing it with another soft giggle.
I get straight to the point with her, because getting off point with Riley is going to lead to this shit getting even more complicated, and fuck, I’ve looked enough tonight to run the risk of major fucking complications.
Plus, she’s laughing. Smiling. Looking like she’s thinking the same things I’m thinking.
Get to the fucking point, Tully.
“Are you going to answer my question?” I ask.
Her brow furrows. “What question?”
“I asked you if he was here.”
“Oh.” Nodding, Riley looks behind her in the direction of the bar, then meets my eyes again. “Yeah, he went to get a drink. He doesn’t really want to be here. I kinda dragged him out.”
“Why?”
“Why what?”
“Why’d you need to drag him out?”
Riley tilts her head. “Because . . . he doesn’t really want to be here?” she repeats slowly, looking puzzled. “I just told you. He doesn’t like The Killers.”
“So?”
“So?”
“Yeah, babe. So.”
She straightens her head, but her eyes narrow as if she’s thinking hard. “You’ve lost me,” she shares.
“Forget it,” I mumble, looking away, knowing I got no business getting up in her shit the way I’m doing. I need to back off.
“No. What? Tell me.” Riley reaches out and places her hand on my forearm.
I look down and watch her black painted fingers wrap around and curl under. I feel them squeeze.
Our eyes lock.
“Tell me,” she pleads, looking close to begging for this.
