With All My Soul
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You want me to protect them? You do understand that youre dealing with a hellion, right? Not a guardian angel.
Dont worry. Im willing to pay.
His eyes flashed again. Child, it would take years of you existing in a constant state of homicidal fury to pay off a debt like that.
I know. But I wouldnt be the only one paying.
Well then...is there anything else on this fantasy list of demands from a child whos obviously grown too big for her mortal britches?
Just one more thing....
As I outlined my last demandthe most selfish of them allhis eyes widened in surprise and delight like Id never seen before from a hellion. The more excited he grew, the more unnerved I became, in part because a hellions joy is never pleasant to witness. But also because it was my pain, fear, and anger putting that creepy, dried-blood smile on his face, and that was one of the scariest facts Id ever contemplated.
When I was finished, Ira stared at me in obvious anticipation. I must admit, I am intrigued by your devious, clever little mind. Then he licked his lips with a dark, dark tongue. Now, lets discuss payment.
I took another deep breath and clenched my hands into fists to keep them from visibly shaking, though he could probably taste everything I was feeling on the air, whether or not I let it show. Blood dripped between the fingers of my left hand, and the fresh cut throbbed. Youll get a partial payment up front, and even more over the course of our arrangement. Years of pain, fear, and the resulting homicidal rage, just like you said. Then, the bulk will be paid by a third party, when youve upheld the last part of our deal.
The bulk?
I nodded. Pure, concentrated wrath. Way more of it than any mortal body could ever contain. Are you familiar with the term mother lode? Do hellions say that? Because thats what Im talking about here. The biggest payoff of your immortal existence.
Thats an impressive offer. Ira frowned at me, and I realized he was trying to smell a lie. How do you intend to produce such a payment?
I find your skepticism insulting, I said, and he actually chuckled. If you come through on your end, Ill come through on mine. In fact, one was contingent on the other. Okay?
The hellion nodded slowly. The delivery schedule is understood and agreed to. Now, for the up-front part of the payment. His eyes glittered with perverse pleasure, and it took all of my self-control to keep from gagging. What did you have in mind?
I dipped my right index finger into the blood still pooled in my left palm, then reached out to trace his lower lip. There will be much, much more, but it starts with anotherkiss....
* * *
By the time I crossed into the Netherworld, dried blood had crusted on my lips and around my mouth. Ira was not a neat kisser.
That thoughtand the fact that I had reason to think itnearly made me lose what little Id eaten since lunch the day before. My jaw ached and my tongue throbbed from being bitten, and I wasnt sure Id ever get the taste of my own blood out of my mouth. Not to mention the taste of hellion.
I scrubbed my mouth with the tail of my shirt as we walked, but since I had no mirror, I couldnt be sure Id gotten all the blood off.
The hospital rose in front of us, and we veered slowly toward the mental health unit across the parking lot from the main building. I stepped carefully to avoid baby creeper vines reaching for me from cracks in the concretethey had crossed over from the human world, thanks to the steady human traffic on our side of the barrier. Ira let me set the pace, and I wasnt sure why until he spoke.
I would tell you not to worry, little fury, except that Ive grown to enjoy the taste of your fear.
I had nothing to say to that.
Lakeside looked extra-creepy in the red-tinted Netherworld moonlight, and our stunted shadows, splayed out on the sidewalk in front of us, bore little resemblance to our actual bodies. His even seemed to have an extra limb in my peripheral vision.
Things skittered in the high grass on either side of the walkway, and my instinct was to shy away from sounds I couldnt identify. But Ira had already promised me a safe escort as part of his side of the deal wed struck. Nothing would mess with me for the next few minutes.
After that, all bets were off.
I wanted to threaten him with the consequences of going back on his word, just to reassure myself, but there were no consequences, which was just as well, because he couldnt go back on his word. That was the best thing about a hellions inability to lie.
However, just because he couldnt back out didnt mean everything would go as Id planned. If there was something Id missedsomething Id failed to stipulate or make him agree tothe whole thing would fall apart around me. And I wouldnt be the only one to suffer for it.
Ready, little fury? Ira asked, and his words sent waves of anger rolling through me, a fan stoking flames of a rage Id almost forgotten Id left burning.
I will never be ready for this, I whispered, and he stared down into my eyes, as near as I could tell, considering that his had no pupils or irises.
But you will do it anyway. Thats why he wants you. That selflessness is contrary to everything he is and everything he will ever be. He cant understand you, but he will try, and that process will not be pleasant for you.
Dont worry. Im willing to pay.
His eyes flashed again. Child, it would take years of you existing in a constant state of homicidal fury to pay off a debt like that.
I know. But I wouldnt be the only one paying.
Well then...is there anything else on this fantasy list of demands from a child whos obviously grown too big for her mortal britches?
Just one more thing....
As I outlined my last demandthe most selfish of them allhis eyes widened in surprise and delight like Id never seen before from a hellion. The more excited he grew, the more unnerved I became, in part because a hellions joy is never pleasant to witness. But also because it was my pain, fear, and anger putting that creepy, dried-blood smile on his face, and that was one of the scariest facts Id ever contemplated.
When I was finished, Ira stared at me in obvious anticipation. I must admit, I am intrigued by your devious, clever little mind. Then he licked his lips with a dark, dark tongue. Now, lets discuss payment.
I took another deep breath and clenched my hands into fists to keep them from visibly shaking, though he could probably taste everything I was feeling on the air, whether or not I let it show. Blood dripped between the fingers of my left hand, and the fresh cut throbbed. Youll get a partial payment up front, and even more over the course of our arrangement. Years of pain, fear, and the resulting homicidal rage, just like you said. Then, the bulk will be paid by a third party, when youve upheld the last part of our deal.
The bulk?
I nodded. Pure, concentrated wrath. Way more of it than any mortal body could ever contain. Are you familiar with the term mother lode? Do hellions say that? Because thats what Im talking about here. The biggest payoff of your immortal existence.
Thats an impressive offer. Ira frowned at me, and I realized he was trying to smell a lie. How do you intend to produce such a payment?
I find your skepticism insulting, I said, and he actually chuckled. If you come through on your end, Ill come through on mine. In fact, one was contingent on the other. Okay?
The hellion nodded slowly. The delivery schedule is understood and agreed to. Now, for the up-front part of the payment. His eyes glittered with perverse pleasure, and it took all of my self-control to keep from gagging. What did you have in mind?
I dipped my right index finger into the blood still pooled in my left palm, then reached out to trace his lower lip. There will be much, much more, but it starts with anotherkiss....
* * *
By the time I crossed into the Netherworld, dried blood had crusted on my lips and around my mouth. Ira was not a neat kisser.
That thoughtand the fact that I had reason to think itnearly made me lose what little Id eaten since lunch the day before. My jaw ached and my tongue throbbed from being bitten, and I wasnt sure Id ever get the taste of my own blood out of my mouth. Not to mention the taste of hellion.
I scrubbed my mouth with the tail of my shirt as we walked, but since I had no mirror, I couldnt be sure Id gotten all the blood off.
The hospital rose in front of us, and we veered slowly toward the mental health unit across the parking lot from the main building. I stepped carefully to avoid baby creeper vines reaching for me from cracks in the concretethey had crossed over from the human world, thanks to the steady human traffic on our side of the barrier. Ira let me set the pace, and I wasnt sure why until he spoke.
I would tell you not to worry, little fury, except that Ive grown to enjoy the taste of your fear.
I had nothing to say to that.
Lakeside looked extra-creepy in the red-tinted Netherworld moonlight, and our stunted shadows, splayed out on the sidewalk in front of us, bore little resemblance to our actual bodies. His even seemed to have an extra limb in my peripheral vision.
Things skittered in the high grass on either side of the walkway, and my instinct was to shy away from sounds I couldnt identify. But Ira had already promised me a safe escort as part of his side of the deal wed struck. Nothing would mess with me for the next few minutes.
After that, all bets were off.
I wanted to threaten him with the consequences of going back on his word, just to reassure myself, but there were no consequences, which was just as well, because he couldnt go back on his word. That was the best thing about a hellions inability to lie.
However, just because he couldnt back out didnt mean everything would go as Id planned. If there was something Id missedsomething Id failed to stipulate or make him agree tothe whole thing would fall apart around me. And I wouldnt be the only one to suffer for it.
Ready, little fury? Ira asked, and his words sent waves of anger rolling through me, a fan stoking flames of a rage Id almost forgotten Id left burning.
I will never be ready for this, I whispered, and he stared down into my eyes, as near as I could tell, considering that his had no pupils or irises.
But you will do it anyway. Thats why he wants you. That selflessness is contrary to everything he is and everything he will ever be. He cant understand you, but he will try, and that process will not be pleasant for you.
