Without You

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“I’m. So. Sorry,” he whispered between kisses.
I pulled back and looked into his eyes. “For what?”
He shook his head, and his eyes looked so sad. “For fucking you when all I really wanted to do was make love to you.”
My stomach did a crazy flip, and my heart felt like it had dropped to my stomach. I placed my hands on the sides of his face. “I loved every second of it. It was hot as hell, and I’d love to do that more often.”
He smiled bigger. “It was pretty hot, wasn’t it?”
I bit my lower lip and nodded my head. He leaned down and kissed me as he began pushing himself into me, a little bit more each time. It felt amazing.
He moved his head back and closed his eyes. “Motherfucker. That feels so good, Lex, but I don’t have a condom on.”
No wonder it felt so good. “Just a couple more times, Will. Please, I just want to feel you.”
He pushed all the way in, and we both let out a moan.
“Don’t move, Will.”
I wanted to feel him inside me with nothing between us.
“Lex…” he whispered as he moved just a little bit.
He quickly pulled out of me and jumped up from the bed. He went to his pants on the floor. When I saw him grab a condom, I felt disappointed. I was on birth control, so why he insisted on a condom was beyond me.
He rolled it on and climbed back over me.
When I felt his fingers inside me, I let out a sigh of relief. “Feels so good,” I whispered.
Then, he moved and slowly pushed himself in so deep that I let out a gasp. He continued to move in and out. He was being so gentle. His lips came to my ear where he began telling me how much he loved me.
That was when last night decided to rear its ugly head. Blake’s voice invaded my thoughts.
I want you to know what you do to me.
I squeezed my eyes shut as I pushed last night and Blake from my mind. I whispered, “I love you, Will. I love you so much.”
Two Months Later
I sat in the small café, trying to study. I had only seen Lex one time in the last two months because of our crazy schedules at school. It seemed like both of us had taken on schedules tougher than we had anticipated. Then, Lex had a huge project she had been working on with a few classmates the last two weekends in a row.
I was going insane, and I knew she was, too. Our last two attempts to FaceTime each other hadn’t worked out, and I had heard the frustration in her voice. Weeks of texting and not being able to release our sexual frustrations were getting to the both of us. After Thanksgiving vacation, Lex was going to bring her car to school, so we could at least attempt to see each other more often.
I let out a sigh and picked up my phone.
Me: Thinking about you.
Lex: Thinking about you. What are you doing?
Me: Studying. You?
Lex: Heading to a study group. Big chemistry test before vacation.
I knew Lex had been hanging around that Blake guy more and more. They were in a study group together, and she had brought him up a few times. I didn’t like the guy. The first time I’d met him, I’d mentioned I was Lex’s boyfriend, and he’d rubbed me wrong. The way he’d looked at her pissed me off.
Me: Who all is going to be there?
Lex: I guess the normal people. Grace was supposed to go, but she backed out. She’s not feeling well.
Me: How late will you be there?
Lex: I don’t think too late. I can’t wait to see you! I can’t wait to go home for Thanksgiving and see everyone!
Me: I can’t wait to fuck you against another door.
Lex: God, Will. I’m so horny all the time, and you don’t make it easier when you talk to me like that.
Me: Can you FaceTime? I’ll go to my truck.
Lex: I can’t. I’m here. I love you! I’ll call you when I’m done. Bye!
Me: K. I love you, too, Lex. Later.
“Fuck,” I whispered as I gathered up my books.
I headed back to the dorm. I pulled up and saw Callie Morgan talking to her fiancé, Joe Michaels. They were both in my English Lit class. Callie was a cute girl with blonde hair and green eyes, and she was shorter than Lex. She was probably one of the most outgoing girls I’d ever met. Joe was tall and built, and he had no problem telling you how it was. They made a cute couple, and where one was, the other was surely nearby.
“Hayes! How’s it going?” Joe said.
I smiled and reached out to shake Joe’s hand.
Callie smiled. “How are you?”
“Frustrated that my girlfriend is at another school, but other than that, I’m doing good. What are y’all up to?”