Before I Wake
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I cant get very close to him anymore. That damn dog barks every time I show up, and Nash starts yelling for me to get out.
Nashs dog, Baskerville, was Styxs littermate.
Nash isnt going to forgive me, Tod said. Not yet, anyway. But he might forgive you. He still loves you, Kaylee.
Something in his voice made my heart hurt, and I hated that I liked that. Feeling anything was so rare lately that even pain had become interesting.
Youre not worried about me and Nash, are you? I asked, ducking to catch his gaze. Because
No. He put one finger over my mouth, then replaced it with his lips, and that kiss went deeper and longer than would have been appropriate in a hospital, if anyone could have seen us. And when he finally pulled away, his gaze met mine, and everything that kiss had said was still echoing in his eyes, in fierce cobalt swirls of emotion so bold and confident it couldnt possibly be shaken. Im not worried about you and Nash. Im worried about just Nash.
Me, too.
Did something happen?
Something happened, but not because of Nash. I had my first reclamation this morning, I said, wishing we werent separated by the arm of the chair between us. Rogue reaper. Sort of a trial run, before they send me on the job they brought me back for.
So, did you kick ass?
I grinned, indulging in a moment of pride over the fact that Id actually gotten the job done. First time. There was both the kicking of ass and the taking of names. One name, actually.
Tods pale brows rose. I take it this is a name I might know?
My moment of pride ended in a cold wash of fear and confusion. Thane.
His brow furrowed. Thane, the lovable, brand-new reaper Ive never met, who means none of us any harm? Please say you mean that Thane .
Nope, the other one. Thane, the reaper who killed my mother, then came back for me thirteen years later. Hes back, Tod. He killed a doughnut-shop owner this morning, then just kind of hung around waiting to be caught, like he knew someone would come for him. He was surprised to see me, though, and he looked terrified when I took the soul from him.
Did you tell Madeline? Tod asked, his irises noticeably still.
No, I didnt want to get you in trouble.
His frown deepened. Kaylee, either Avari let Thane go, or Thane escaped. Either way, somethings wrong. You have to tell her.
No! That came out louder than Id intended, and if Id been audible, everyone in the E.R. waiting room would have been staring at us. Im not spending eternity here without you. No way.
His fingers tightened around mine. Thats not what Iwant, either, but we cant just let Thane keep killing.
I know, but there has to be a way I can get rid of him without losing you. I think we should start at Lakeside. The psychiatric unit attached to the hospital we sat in at that very moment.
With Scott? Tods irises were swirling now, reflecting his emotions as he started to understand my plan.
Yeah.
Scott Carter, one of Nashs best friends and Sophiesex?boyfriend, had gone insane when addiction to Demons Breath left him with a hardwired mental connection to Avari, the hellion whose breath hed huffed. The very same hellion Tod had given Thane to. If anyone knew how and why Thane was back on the human plane, Avari would.
Getting him to tell us would be the hard part.
Okay, Tod said finally. Well go see Scott tonight, but for now, I need to get back to work. These sick people arent going to kill themselves, you know.
I fought a smile, more relieved than truly amused. Your sense of humor is so morbid.
Says the dead girl. See you at lunch?
Yeah. Itll probably be you, me, Em, and her human boyfriend, though, so it might be kind of awkward. He could show himself to just me and Em, but it would be easier for Em to pretend not to see him if she actually couldnt see him.
Tod scowled. Fine. But if I have to stay invisible the whole time, I cant promise to be on my best behavior. Theres no telling what I might do I mean, if no one else can see me, anyway, why bother with clothes at all?
I laughed, trying to disguise the sudden curious heat settling into my face. Well, that ought to spice up the lunch period.
Thats a game two can play, you know, he said, his gaze wandering south of my collarbones.
Except that I wont be invisible, I pointed out as he leaned over the chair arm between us to drop a kiss on my neck, and my heart thumped a little harder, a sensation Id taken entirely for granted when I was still alive.
Tod groaned against my skin. Remind me again why were going to lunch, when neither of us needs food?
Im having trouble remembering at the moment, I whispered when he sat up and the heat in his eyes burned straight through my own. Something about pretending to be alive
Hows that working out?
It feels less like pretending at the moment. With my heart beating on its own. My skin tingling from just the possibility that he might touch me again. But that would stop when I went back to school. Id have to concentrate on the appearance of lifea pulse, regular breaths, physical presenceand everything would suddenly be immeasurably harder.
Nashs dog, Baskerville, was Styxs littermate.
Nash isnt going to forgive me, Tod said. Not yet, anyway. But he might forgive you. He still loves you, Kaylee.
Something in his voice made my heart hurt, and I hated that I liked that. Feeling anything was so rare lately that even pain had become interesting.
Youre not worried about me and Nash, are you? I asked, ducking to catch his gaze. Because
No. He put one finger over my mouth, then replaced it with his lips, and that kiss went deeper and longer than would have been appropriate in a hospital, if anyone could have seen us. And when he finally pulled away, his gaze met mine, and everything that kiss had said was still echoing in his eyes, in fierce cobalt swirls of emotion so bold and confident it couldnt possibly be shaken. Im not worried about you and Nash. Im worried about just Nash.
Me, too.
Did something happen?
Something happened, but not because of Nash. I had my first reclamation this morning, I said, wishing we werent separated by the arm of the chair between us. Rogue reaper. Sort of a trial run, before they send me on the job they brought me back for.
So, did you kick ass?
I grinned, indulging in a moment of pride over the fact that Id actually gotten the job done. First time. There was both the kicking of ass and the taking of names. One name, actually.
Tods pale brows rose. I take it this is a name I might know?
My moment of pride ended in a cold wash of fear and confusion. Thane.
His brow furrowed. Thane, the lovable, brand-new reaper Ive never met, who means none of us any harm? Please say you mean that Thane .
Nope, the other one. Thane, the reaper who killed my mother, then came back for me thirteen years later. Hes back, Tod. He killed a doughnut-shop owner this morning, then just kind of hung around waiting to be caught, like he knew someone would come for him. He was surprised to see me, though, and he looked terrified when I took the soul from him.
Did you tell Madeline? Tod asked, his irises noticeably still.
No, I didnt want to get you in trouble.
His frown deepened. Kaylee, either Avari let Thane go, or Thane escaped. Either way, somethings wrong. You have to tell her.
No! That came out louder than Id intended, and if Id been audible, everyone in the E.R. waiting room would have been staring at us. Im not spending eternity here without you. No way.
His fingers tightened around mine. Thats not what Iwant, either, but we cant just let Thane keep killing.
I know, but there has to be a way I can get rid of him without losing you. I think we should start at Lakeside. The psychiatric unit attached to the hospital we sat in at that very moment.
With Scott? Tods irises were swirling now, reflecting his emotions as he started to understand my plan.
Yeah.
Scott Carter, one of Nashs best friends and Sophiesex?boyfriend, had gone insane when addiction to Demons Breath left him with a hardwired mental connection to Avari, the hellion whose breath hed huffed. The very same hellion Tod had given Thane to. If anyone knew how and why Thane was back on the human plane, Avari would.
Getting him to tell us would be the hard part.
Okay, Tod said finally. Well go see Scott tonight, but for now, I need to get back to work. These sick people arent going to kill themselves, you know.
I fought a smile, more relieved than truly amused. Your sense of humor is so morbid.
Says the dead girl. See you at lunch?
Yeah. Itll probably be you, me, Em, and her human boyfriend, though, so it might be kind of awkward. He could show himself to just me and Em, but it would be easier for Em to pretend not to see him if she actually couldnt see him.
Tod scowled. Fine. But if I have to stay invisible the whole time, I cant promise to be on my best behavior. Theres no telling what I might do I mean, if no one else can see me, anyway, why bother with clothes at all?
I laughed, trying to disguise the sudden curious heat settling into my face. Well, that ought to spice up the lunch period.
Thats a game two can play, you know, he said, his gaze wandering south of my collarbones.
Except that I wont be invisible, I pointed out as he leaned over the chair arm between us to drop a kiss on my neck, and my heart thumped a little harder, a sensation Id taken entirely for granted when I was still alive.
Tod groaned against my skin. Remind me again why were going to lunch, when neither of us needs food?
Im having trouble remembering at the moment, I whispered when he sat up and the heat in his eyes burned straight through my own. Something about pretending to be alive
Hows that working out?
It feels less like pretending at the moment. With my heart beating on its own. My skin tingling from just the possibility that he might touch me again. But that would stop when I went back to school. Id have to concentrate on the appearance of lifea pulse, regular breaths, physical presenceand everything would suddenly be immeasurably harder.
