Crimson Death
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“Her thoughts, your emotions, I think. This level of contact is new, so I’m not positive which way it runs.”
“As the only person in this room not tied to you intimately, I’ll say this: You have to consider your beasts as a real part of you, Anita. You are one of the most powerful metaphysics I’ve ever met, but eventually you’ll need to become whole, and that means embracing all of yourself, including the parts that want to turn furry once a month,” Domino said sternly.
“Even if they don’t turn furry once a month?”
“Maybe especially then, because contacting them through meditation and magic is the only way you can communicate with them.”
I didn’t know what to say to that. “It’s a little late to apologize.”
“Apologize to who? Your beasts, Nathaniel and Damian, Bobby Lee?” Domino asked.
“All of the above,” I said.
“That’s a start,” he said.
Bobby Lee said, “You asked me who else goes to Ireland. How about Domino? He de-escalated this nicely.”
“Yeah, thanks for the help, Domino.”
“It’s my job. Besides, this is nothing next to some of the fights Max and Bibiana used to get into in Vegas. When your Master of the City and the queen of your clan go at it, you’ve got serious trouble.”
I laughed. “I bet they have real doozies.”
“They’re powerful enough to destroy each other. Instead they’ve been married for over seventy years. As bodyguards, part of our job is to see trouble and head it off.”
“The three of you are going to be on a learning curve with this new power level. Looks like Domino can help with that,” Bobby Lee said.
I nodded. “Agreed.”
“And no offense meant, but he can act as food for the ardeur if needed.”
“No offense taken,” I said.
“I’m actually off the menu,” he said.
Bobby Lee looked from one of us to the other. “I’d heard Anita was shortening her list of lovers.”
“I’m sorry, Domino, but there just isn’t enough of me to go around to this many people. I can’t date a dozen people. No one can.”
“I remember our talk, Anita.” He only sounded a little bitter.
“I’m not going to apologize again.”
“No one’s asking you to.”
“Enough,” Bobby Lee said. “Domino only goes if it’s going to make things better, not worse.”
“I can handle myself and it’s like any breakup; you heal in stages,” he said.
I tried very hard not to think that it didn’t feel like a breakup to me, because we hadn’t had a relationship; we’d had sex on a semiregular basis, but for whatever reason it had never clicked emotionally between us like it had between Nathaniel and me. Hell, it had never clicked between the wereleopard and the vampire until this last literally magical moment. Domino had never crossed the emotional divide for me, or not enough. I understood that it was Nathaniel’s emotions that were making Damian more than he had been, but even knowing that, I couldn’t seem to separate it out into his, my, and Damian’s feelings. Lucky for me none of my other animals to call had a vampire to back them up, and I wasn’t tied to any other vampires except for Jean-Claude and Damian. I’d almost married Richard once, thanks in part to the vampire marks that Jean-Claude had on both of us.
I looked from Nathaniel to Damian, and for the first time my gaze lingered over both of them. I suddenly wished Micah or Jean-Claude could come with us to Ireland—not for solving crime, or physical safety, but for emotional safety. It probably wasn’t a great idea to go to Ireland without either of the other two that I wanted to marry. I needed someone else who would help Nathaniel not obsess about the new relationship parameters with Damian, because his obsession could so easily become mine. I was taking the two women that we shared with us, but one was more a fuck buddy for all of us and the other had a primary in her vampire master, who was the love of her life. If I was looking at Damian like he was way more to me than he had been, than I knew Nathaniel was, we needed a buffer.
I was pretty sure I knew who to take to help me hold on to my heart, but we needed someone to help Nathaniel, too. I looked at Domino and knew another weretiger who might be just the ticket.
25
I FINALLY GOT Micah on the phone between peace negotiations. “How are the negotiations going?” I asked. “We haven’t had to fight anyone yet. Everyone is still talking about a resolution that may actually be bloodless.”
“That’s great. You know I worry when you go out to these peace talks.”
“Because before they’ll settle for peace, they usually want a little war,” he said, and his voice held laughter, but it was too close to true for me to find it funny.
“Ironic that I don’t like the shoe being on the other foot for the dangerous stuff,” I said.
“You’re very good about not saying the worry out loud.”
“Thanks, you’ve been such a good sport about all the crime fighting over the years that it would just be bad form for me to bitch now.”
He did laugh then. “Since when is being part of a couple fair?”
“Since I try to be,” I said, and I gave him a little laugh, because that was what he was wanting.
“We all try to be fair,” he said.
“We really do.”
“So Edward found a way to bring you in as a consultant to Ireland.”
“Yeah, but not just me. I can bring some of the guards with me.”
“Really? How did he manage that?”
“It’s Edward. He’s like the go-to guy for the nearly impossible stuff.”
“Who are you taking with you?” he asked.
“That’s what I wanted you to know before we left.”
“Uh-oh,” he said.
“What uh-oh?”
“You don’t expect me to be happy about some of the people you’re taking with you.”
“How do you know that?”
“Your voice just now told me.”
“I love that you know me so well, and sometimes it’s a little unsettling.”
“That’s better than creepy, which is what you thought all of this interpersonal couple stuff was once.”
“I wasn’t that bad,” I said.
“As the only person in this room not tied to you intimately, I’ll say this: You have to consider your beasts as a real part of you, Anita. You are one of the most powerful metaphysics I’ve ever met, but eventually you’ll need to become whole, and that means embracing all of yourself, including the parts that want to turn furry once a month,” Domino said sternly.
“Even if they don’t turn furry once a month?”
“Maybe especially then, because contacting them through meditation and magic is the only way you can communicate with them.”
I didn’t know what to say to that. “It’s a little late to apologize.”
“Apologize to who? Your beasts, Nathaniel and Damian, Bobby Lee?” Domino asked.
“All of the above,” I said.
“That’s a start,” he said.
Bobby Lee said, “You asked me who else goes to Ireland. How about Domino? He de-escalated this nicely.”
“Yeah, thanks for the help, Domino.”
“It’s my job. Besides, this is nothing next to some of the fights Max and Bibiana used to get into in Vegas. When your Master of the City and the queen of your clan go at it, you’ve got serious trouble.”
I laughed. “I bet they have real doozies.”
“They’re powerful enough to destroy each other. Instead they’ve been married for over seventy years. As bodyguards, part of our job is to see trouble and head it off.”
“The three of you are going to be on a learning curve with this new power level. Looks like Domino can help with that,” Bobby Lee said.
I nodded. “Agreed.”
“And no offense meant, but he can act as food for the ardeur if needed.”
“No offense taken,” I said.
“I’m actually off the menu,” he said.
Bobby Lee looked from one of us to the other. “I’d heard Anita was shortening her list of lovers.”
“I’m sorry, Domino, but there just isn’t enough of me to go around to this many people. I can’t date a dozen people. No one can.”
“I remember our talk, Anita.” He only sounded a little bitter.
“I’m not going to apologize again.”
“No one’s asking you to.”
“Enough,” Bobby Lee said. “Domino only goes if it’s going to make things better, not worse.”
“I can handle myself and it’s like any breakup; you heal in stages,” he said.
I tried very hard not to think that it didn’t feel like a breakup to me, because we hadn’t had a relationship; we’d had sex on a semiregular basis, but for whatever reason it had never clicked emotionally between us like it had between Nathaniel and me. Hell, it had never clicked between the wereleopard and the vampire until this last literally magical moment. Domino had never crossed the emotional divide for me, or not enough. I understood that it was Nathaniel’s emotions that were making Damian more than he had been, but even knowing that, I couldn’t seem to separate it out into his, my, and Damian’s feelings. Lucky for me none of my other animals to call had a vampire to back them up, and I wasn’t tied to any other vampires except for Jean-Claude and Damian. I’d almost married Richard once, thanks in part to the vampire marks that Jean-Claude had on both of us.
I looked from Nathaniel to Damian, and for the first time my gaze lingered over both of them. I suddenly wished Micah or Jean-Claude could come with us to Ireland—not for solving crime, or physical safety, but for emotional safety. It probably wasn’t a great idea to go to Ireland without either of the other two that I wanted to marry. I needed someone else who would help Nathaniel not obsess about the new relationship parameters with Damian, because his obsession could so easily become mine. I was taking the two women that we shared with us, but one was more a fuck buddy for all of us and the other had a primary in her vampire master, who was the love of her life. If I was looking at Damian like he was way more to me than he had been, than I knew Nathaniel was, we needed a buffer.
I was pretty sure I knew who to take to help me hold on to my heart, but we needed someone to help Nathaniel, too. I looked at Domino and knew another weretiger who might be just the ticket.
25
I FINALLY GOT Micah on the phone between peace negotiations. “How are the negotiations going?” I asked. “We haven’t had to fight anyone yet. Everyone is still talking about a resolution that may actually be bloodless.”
“That’s great. You know I worry when you go out to these peace talks.”
“Because before they’ll settle for peace, they usually want a little war,” he said, and his voice held laughter, but it was too close to true for me to find it funny.
“Ironic that I don’t like the shoe being on the other foot for the dangerous stuff,” I said.
“You’re very good about not saying the worry out loud.”
“Thanks, you’ve been such a good sport about all the crime fighting over the years that it would just be bad form for me to bitch now.”
He did laugh then. “Since when is being part of a couple fair?”
“Since I try to be,” I said, and I gave him a little laugh, because that was what he was wanting.
“We all try to be fair,” he said.
“We really do.”
“So Edward found a way to bring you in as a consultant to Ireland.”
“Yeah, but not just me. I can bring some of the guards with me.”
“Really? How did he manage that?”
“It’s Edward. He’s like the go-to guy for the nearly impossible stuff.”
“Who are you taking with you?” he asked.
“That’s what I wanted you to know before we left.”
“Uh-oh,” he said.
“What uh-oh?”
“You don’t expect me to be happy about some of the people you’re taking with you.”
“How do you know that?”
“Your voice just now told me.”
“I love that you know me so well, and sometimes it’s a little unsettling.”
“That’s better than creepy, which is what you thought all of this interpersonal couple stuff was once.”
“I wasn’t that bad,” I said.
