Crimson Death
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“He likes men,” I said.
“I just said he doesn’t like men as much as Dev and Nathaniel.”
“Nathaniel is one of the most evenly bisexual people I’ve ever met, and Dev is a close second.”
“He leans a little bit more to the guy side,” Micah said.
“Probably, but it’s hard for me to judge, being a woman.”
“Fair enough. Where would you put Jean-Claude on the Kinsey scale?”
“Wherever he wants to be.”
“That’s probably truer than we understand about him.”
“I said it. Maybe I do understand him.”
“You’ve known him longer than I have.”
“I’m taking Dev specifically to help me buffer Nathaniel from falling too much in love with Damian. That’s the part I’m not sure you’ll like.”
“When you know that I’m a little worried that Nathaniel is already too in love with Dev for my comfort.”
“Yes,” I said.
“Dev is your golden tiger to call, and that is an amazing power boost for you and for me as your Nimir-Raj. A combination of your panwere lycanthropy and his power as gold tiger helped me find a second form as a black tiger. Being able to shift into a second beast has helped me win fights I might have lost, and just plain scared some of the shapeshifters who would have fought us on these trips. A panwere is the rarest form of lycanthropy. They’re almost legend among us. The extra power I’ve gained through our ties to Dev has saved my blood and body more than once.”
“And that makes me very happy,” I said.
“Me, too,” he said, and there was that edge of a smile in his voice that I loved to hear.
“You told Dev if he gave you enough power to do exactly what you just said, that you’d put a ring on it, on him.”
“He wants to be the weretiger in the commitment ceremony with you and the men you choose.”
“If I could I’d just marry you, Nathaniel, and Jean-Claude.”
“Legally you can only marry Jean-Claude, and if you can only marry one of us it has to be the vampire king.”
“You’re the leopard king.”
“Of St. Louis, not the whole country.”
“I’d still marry the three of you legally if I could.”
“I know, and I appreciate that.”
I was quiet for a second and almost didn’t say it, but finally I had to. “You know it’s not the boy-on-boy sex that’s made Dev move up in Nathaniel’s estimation, right?”
He sighed heavily. “I know I was stupid. I know I’m being stupid.”
“I didn’t say that.”
“I didn’t expect Nathaniel to propose to me that he and I get married for real the way you and Jean-Claude are going to.”
“You proposed to both of us once, Micah. You said you’d marry us both if you could.”
“I meant I’d marry both of you, not just one of you.”
“Micah, be honest. You’d marry just me if you could, so you can’t blame Nathaniel for being hurt that you won’t marry just him.”
“I told you I was being stupid. It’s just he’s the first boyfriend I’ve ever had. If I got married I just always saw myself with a woman.”
“A lot of us get stuck on what we think we should have, should love, should want, should lust after. Therapy helped me get over my white-picket-fence fantasy, because it so wasn’t going to work for my life.”
“Fine. I feel threatened by Dev, because he would marry Nathaniel.”
“I don’t think they would work as each other’s primary partner,” I said.
“They don’t have to, Anita. That’s what makes the thought of Dev putting a legal ring on Nathaniel’s finger so possible. They both want to get married. Nathaniel asked me and I’m hesitating. Dev proposed to Asher and got turned down flat.”
“Asher was a shit about it. We all broke up with him because he’s such a shit,” I said.
“I didn’t break up with Asher. I do not see what any of you see in him.”
“You don’t like bondage and rough sex enough to appreciate Asher’s finer qualities.”
“I know he’s really good at being mean both for pretend in the dungeon and in real life. The last part sort of makes the first part not work for me.”
“You don’t like the first part,” I said.
“You don’t like the second part,” he said.
“None of us do, which is why Jean-Claude, Nathaniel, Richard, and I all broke up with him.”
“From all accounts he’s miserable with just Kane as his lover and moitié bête,” Micah said.
“Asher is one of the least monogamous people I know and one of the kinkiest. He’s now stuck being monogamous with Kane, who is totally vanilla and doesn’t do kink at all. Of course Asher is miserable. He’s created his own living hell.”
“Some people would say that homosexuality is a type of kink,” Micah said.
“Then some people haven’t been around enough homosexuals, because they can be every bit as conservative and narrow-minded as any heterosexual.”
“My experience is limited, and most of the bisexuals I know are also kinky.”
“Bisexuals seem to have a higher kink level than either end of the scale,” I said.
“At least the ones we know,” he said.
“Fair enough, so do you want me to leave Dev at home?”
“You’d really do that just because I’m blaming him for something that is my fault?”
“No, because Dev is charming and I don’t want to make this problem between Nathaniel and you worse. I don’t know if I want Dev living with us constantly. He doesn’t work with our entire poly group as well as some of the others do.”
“Nicky works great, but neither Jean-Claude nor I will do a commitment ceremony with him. Sin works great, but neither you, I, or Jean-Claude will commit to him.”
“He’s a nephew to Jean-Claude and a brother-husband to the rest of you.”
“I’ll call Sin that, but not Nicky.”
“Nicky is only a lion, so he doesn’t help us over the whole tiger issue anyway,” I said.
“I know that the tiger clan leaders won’t rest until you’re married off to one of the clan tigers.”
“I just said he doesn’t like men as much as Dev and Nathaniel.”
“Nathaniel is one of the most evenly bisexual people I’ve ever met, and Dev is a close second.”
“He leans a little bit more to the guy side,” Micah said.
“Probably, but it’s hard for me to judge, being a woman.”
“Fair enough. Where would you put Jean-Claude on the Kinsey scale?”
“Wherever he wants to be.”
“That’s probably truer than we understand about him.”
“I said it. Maybe I do understand him.”
“You’ve known him longer than I have.”
“I’m taking Dev specifically to help me buffer Nathaniel from falling too much in love with Damian. That’s the part I’m not sure you’ll like.”
“When you know that I’m a little worried that Nathaniel is already too in love with Dev for my comfort.”
“Yes,” I said.
“Dev is your golden tiger to call, and that is an amazing power boost for you and for me as your Nimir-Raj. A combination of your panwere lycanthropy and his power as gold tiger helped me find a second form as a black tiger. Being able to shift into a second beast has helped me win fights I might have lost, and just plain scared some of the shapeshifters who would have fought us on these trips. A panwere is the rarest form of lycanthropy. They’re almost legend among us. The extra power I’ve gained through our ties to Dev has saved my blood and body more than once.”
“And that makes me very happy,” I said.
“Me, too,” he said, and there was that edge of a smile in his voice that I loved to hear.
“You told Dev if he gave you enough power to do exactly what you just said, that you’d put a ring on it, on him.”
“He wants to be the weretiger in the commitment ceremony with you and the men you choose.”
“If I could I’d just marry you, Nathaniel, and Jean-Claude.”
“Legally you can only marry Jean-Claude, and if you can only marry one of us it has to be the vampire king.”
“You’re the leopard king.”
“Of St. Louis, not the whole country.”
“I’d still marry the three of you legally if I could.”
“I know, and I appreciate that.”
I was quiet for a second and almost didn’t say it, but finally I had to. “You know it’s not the boy-on-boy sex that’s made Dev move up in Nathaniel’s estimation, right?”
He sighed heavily. “I know I was stupid. I know I’m being stupid.”
“I didn’t say that.”
“I didn’t expect Nathaniel to propose to me that he and I get married for real the way you and Jean-Claude are going to.”
“You proposed to both of us once, Micah. You said you’d marry us both if you could.”
“I meant I’d marry both of you, not just one of you.”
“Micah, be honest. You’d marry just me if you could, so you can’t blame Nathaniel for being hurt that you won’t marry just him.”
“I told you I was being stupid. It’s just he’s the first boyfriend I’ve ever had. If I got married I just always saw myself with a woman.”
“A lot of us get stuck on what we think we should have, should love, should want, should lust after. Therapy helped me get over my white-picket-fence fantasy, because it so wasn’t going to work for my life.”
“Fine. I feel threatened by Dev, because he would marry Nathaniel.”
“I don’t think they would work as each other’s primary partner,” I said.
“They don’t have to, Anita. That’s what makes the thought of Dev putting a legal ring on Nathaniel’s finger so possible. They both want to get married. Nathaniel asked me and I’m hesitating. Dev proposed to Asher and got turned down flat.”
“Asher was a shit about it. We all broke up with him because he’s such a shit,” I said.
“I didn’t break up with Asher. I do not see what any of you see in him.”
“You don’t like bondage and rough sex enough to appreciate Asher’s finer qualities.”
“I know he’s really good at being mean both for pretend in the dungeon and in real life. The last part sort of makes the first part not work for me.”
“You don’t like the first part,” I said.
“You don’t like the second part,” he said.
“None of us do, which is why Jean-Claude, Nathaniel, Richard, and I all broke up with him.”
“From all accounts he’s miserable with just Kane as his lover and moitié bête,” Micah said.
“Asher is one of the least monogamous people I know and one of the kinkiest. He’s now stuck being monogamous with Kane, who is totally vanilla and doesn’t do kink at all. Of course Asher is miserable. He’s created his own living hell.”
“Some people would say that homosexuality is a type of kink,” Micah said.
“Then some people haven’t been around enough homosexuals, because they can be every bit as conservative and narrow-minded as any heterosexual.”
“My experience is limited, and most of the bisexuals I know are also kinky.”
“Bisexuals seem to have a higher kink level than either end of the scale,” I said.
“At least the ones we know,” he said.
“Fair enough, so do you want me to leave Dev at home?”
“You’d really do that just because I’m blaming him for something that is my fault?”
“No, because Dev is charming and I don’t want to make this problem between Nathaniel and you worse. I don’t know if I want Dev living with us constantly. He doesn’t work with our entire poly group as well as some of the others do.”
“Nicky works great, but neither Jean-Claude nor I will do a commitment ceremony with him. Sin works great, but neither you, I, or Jean-Claude will commit to him.”
“He’s a nephew to Jean-Claude and a brother-husband to the rest of you.”
“I’ll call Sin that, but not Nicky.”
“Nicky is only a lion, so he doesn’t help us over the whole tiger issue anyway,” I said.
“I know that the tiger clan leaders won’t rest until you’re married off to one of the clan tigers.”
