Letting Go
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One day at a time. I just needed to keep moving.
Chapter 6
Jagger
July 13, 2014
MY PHONE STARTED ringing just before Grey and I came up on the lake separating our town from another, and I slapped my hand around on my passenger seat until I found it. If Grey and I hadn’t already spent the last few hours talking as I followed behind her on the way back to Thatch, I would’ve thought it was her.
“Hello?” I answered without looking at the screen.
“Hey! Miss me yet?”
I rolled my eyes and switched the phone over to my other hand. “I’m pretty sure I’ve been telling you I missed you for the last month, Charlie.”
“Well, I have to make sure you don’t forget about me,” she said teasingly.
“Don’t think that’s possible, sis. How’s the trip?”
“It’s good! We’re having fun, but I think we’re all starting to get tired of cars.”
“I can’t imagine. Grey can barely pull off this three-and-a-half-hour trip without getting bored out of her mind. I don’t know how you all can stand driving across the country and back again.”
There was a pause before Charlie spoke again, this time her voice was hushed. “Grey’s with you?”
“No, she’s in front of me. We’re just about to pull into Thatch.”
“I thought you said she was in Seattle.”
The easy smile I was wearing at the sound of my sister’s voice dropped into a frown at the way she’d said this, like it was an accusation or something. “She was, and now she’s coming back.”
When Charlie spoke again, her words held a harsh tone. “Just a week ago you said you hadn’t heard from her. Why is she coming back with you?”
“Seriously, Charlie? I thought you wanted her back.”
“I did want her to go back to Thatch, I just didn’t expect you to be bringing her back. What changed in the last week?”
“I went and got her. I don’t understand the way you randomly react to Grey. You love her, you want to see her, you’re upset she left . . . and then you’re pissed off that I’m bringing her back and were weird as shit when you both hung out before you left for your trip. I thought you’d be happy . . . for me at the very least. Shit.”
There was another long pause before she asked, “Happy for you? Why would I—what happened to make her come back?”
“Because I finally have the girl I’ve been waiting for my entire f**king life, Charlie! Now what is your deal?”
“Have her?” she asked quietly. “You’re together?”
I blew out a slow, steadying breath and stared at the car in front of mine. “Yeah, in a way.”
“When did you start dating?” she asked, her voice rising.
“Seriously: What. Is. Your. Deal?”
“Just tell me, Jagger!”
“We didn’t start dating, and I don’t think either of us is going to consider this dating. It’s not like we tried to make it official . . . there’s not really a need to. She knows how I’ve always felt, and I know how she feels, that’s all we need.”
Charlie was silent for so long I started to say her name when she spoke again. There was an odd pain in the tone of her voice, and for the life of me I couldn’t understand it. “I just—I don’t understand . . .” She trailed off.
“What don’t you understand? What is there to understand?”
“Nothing, it’s not a big deal.”
“Really. You sure about that?” I bit out. “Because I could’ve sworn you felt differently.”
“Yes, really. And I am happy for you, Jagger . . . I am.”
“Then wh—”
“You know, I should probably get going,” she said, cutting me off. “We need to check out of this place and I haven’t packed yet, so I’ll talk to you later.”
“Charlie,” I groaned.
“Tell Grey I said hi, okay?”
I shook my head as my confusion grew. “Yeah, all right. You guys be safe, okay?”
She laughed softly and sighed. “Of course. See you in a couple weeks.”
Once the call ended, I blew out a harsh breath and dropped my phone back onto the passenger seat as I pulled up behind Grey at her parents’ house. Stepping out of my car, I rested my arms on top of the door, waiting for her as she walked toward me with a shy smile on her face.
“Charlie says hi,” I told her once she reached my side.
“Yeah?” she asked, her eyes brightening. “Is she having fun?”
I nodded and brushed back some of the hair that had fallen out of her bun, keeping my hand there so I was cupping her cheek when I finished. “Do you need help taking your stuff in?”
“No, I’ll be fine, it’s only one bag. Are you not staying?”
“I’m gonna go home and shower, and you should probably spend some time with your parents.”
She took a step closer to me, closing the distance between us, and her lips parted on a soft exhalation as her body pressed up against mine. “And what about you?”
I looked up to find her eyes locked on my mouth, and a crooked smile pulled at my lips. “What about me?”
“What about spending time with you . . . ?” She trailed off, leaving the end sounding like a question.
“I can wait for you.” Leaning forward, I pressed my lips to her forehead and left them there when I said, “Spend time with them, I know they’ve missed you. When you’re done, you know where to find me.”
Chapter 6
Jagger
July 13, 2014
MY PHONE STARTED ringing just before Grey and I came up on the lake separating our town from another, and I slapped my hand around on my passenger seat until I found it. If Grey and I hadn’t already spent the last few hours talking as I followed behind her on the way back to Thatch, I would’ve thought it was her.
“Hello?” I answered without looking at the screen.
“Hey! Miss me yet?”
I rolled my eyes and switched the phone over to my other hand. “I’m pretty sure I’ve been telling you I missed you for the last month, Charlie.”
“Well, I have to make sure you don’t forget about me,” she said teasingly.
“Don’t think that’s possible, sis. How’s the trip?”
“It’s good! We’re having fun, but I think we’re all starting to get tired of cars.”
“I can’t imagine. Grey can barely pull off this three-and-a-half-hour trip without getting bored out of her mind. I don’t know how you all can stand driving across the country and back again.”
There was a pause before Charlie spoke again, this time her voice was hushed. “Grey’s with you?”
“No, she’s in front of me. We’re just about to pull into Thatch.”
“I thought you said she was in Seattle.”
The easy smile I was wearing at the sound of my sister’s voice dropped into a frown at the way she’d said this, like it was an accusation or something. “She was, and now she’s coming back.”
When Charlie spoke again, her words held a harsh tone. “Just a week ago you said you hadn’t heard from her. Why is she coming back with you?”
“Seriously, Charlie? I thought you wanted her back.”
“I did want her to go back to Thatch, I just didn’t expect you to be bringing her back. What changed in the last week?”
“I went and got her. I don’t understand the way you randomly react to Grey. You love her, you want to see her, you’re upset she left . . . and then you’re pissed off that I’m bringing her back and were weird as shit when you both hung out before you left for your trip. I thought you’d be happy . . . for me at the very least. Shit.”
There was another long pause before she asked, “Happy for you? Why would I—what happened to make her come back?”
“Because I finally have the girl I’ve been waiting for my entire f**king life, Charlie! Now what is your deal?”
“Have her?” she asked quietly. “You’re together?”
I blew out a slow, steadying breath and stared at the car in front of mine. “Yeah, in a way.”
“When did you start dating?” she asked, her voice rising.
“Seriously: What. Is. Your. Deal?”
“Just tell me, Jagger!”
“We didn’t start dating, and I don’t think either of us is going to consider this dating. It’s not like we tried to make it official . . . there’s not really a need to. She knows how I’ve always felt, and I know how she feels, that’s all we need.”
Charlie was silent for so long I started to say her name when she spoke again. There was an odd pain in the tone of her voice, and for the life of me I couldn’t understand it. “I just—I don’t understand . . .” She trailed off.
“What don’t you understand? What is there to understand?”
“Nothing, it’s not a big deal.”
“Really. You sure about that?” I bit out. “Because I could’ve sworn you felt differently.”
“Yes, really. And I am happy for you, Jagger . . . I am.”
“Then wh—”
“You know, I should probably get going,” she said, cutting me off. “We need to check out of this place and I haven’t packed yet, so I’ll talk to you later.”
“Charlie,” I groaned.
“Tell Grey I said hi, okay?”
I shook my head as my confusion grew. “Yeah, all right. You guys be safe, okay?”
She laughed softly and sighed. “Of course. See you in a couple weeks.”
Once the call ended, I blew out a harsh breath and dropped my phone back onto the passenger seat as I pulled up behind Grey at her parents’ house. Stepping out of my car, I rested my arms on top of the door, waiting for her as she walked toward me with a shy smile on her face.
“Charlie says hi,” I told her once she reached my side.
“Yeah?” she asked, her eyes brightening. “Is she having fun?”
I nodded and brushed back some of the hair that had fallen out of her bun, keeping my hand there so I was cupping her cheek when I finished. “Do you need help taking your stuff in?”
“No, I’ll be fine, it’s only one bag. Are you not staying?”
“I’m gonna go home and shower, and you should probably spend some time with your parents.”
She took a step closer to me, closing the distance between us, and her lips parted on a soft exhalation as her body pressed up against mine. “And what about you?”
I looked up to find her eyes locked on my mouth, and a crooked smile pulled at my lips. “What about me?”
“What about spending time with you . . . ?” She trailed off, leaving the end sounding like a question.
“I can wait for you.” Leaning forward, I pressed my lips to her forehead and left them there when I said, “Spend time with them, I know they’ve missed you. When you’re done, you know where to find me.”
