My Clarity
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What possessed me to do what I did next was beyond my control. I had totally lost all of my willpower. Being in this position and with no one around, I let my selfish need for her take over. The need I had the minute I laid my eyes on her. I wanted her and I was going to have her.
“Alex,” I murmured. “I’m going to taste you now.”
I didn’t let her respond. After I heard what sounded like a whimper, I sucked on the wet spot on her neck that was splattered with milk. That was just the beginning. I couldn’t stop there. While I licked my way down, my hand slipped underneath her T-shirt and headed toward her breast. She arched her back and let out a sexy little moan that made me even more excited.
After pulling up her T-shirt to expose her breast, my tongue circled around it, and I sucked and teased her nipple until she felt the need to take a fist full of my hair. I knew I was driving her insane. Thinking she would push away and knowing I should end this before it went too far, I started to slow down. But when Alex started to spread her legs open for me—Holy shit! There was no way in hell I could control it now.
“We shouldn’t,” she groaned. “But don’t stop.”
That was all the confirmation I needed. I crushed my lips on hers hard from all the sexual tension that had built up for so long. I slid my hands underneath that fine ass of hers and teasingly rocked on top of her, obviously giving her what she wanted.
Alex moaned louder, putting me over the edge. I was desperately trying to control my urge. Everything about this felt so right and yet so wrong. I had to stop. I knew she would let me have her and if we gave into temptation tonight, we would both be screwed. There wasn’t going to be an “us” after this. I couldn’t give her the good things in life she deserved.
Alexandria
I dreamt about this several times, but I never knew Elijah would feel this good. When his mouth was over my nipple, I had utterly left all reality behind and floated blissfully away. When his lips were on mine, every single nerve in my body jolted, awakening me. I couldn’t understand why his touch excited me more than Liam ever could. Maybe because I knew Elijah was off limits or because I got a taste of what so many women wanted. Maybe it was the way he was caressing me with such need and passion.
I knew Elijah was slowing down and was probably thinking that this wasn’t a good idea, but it didn’t stop him when I moaned louder. When he pressed down on me, I nearly exploded. My body temperature changed drastically and I stopped shivering from the cold milk. Having his hard body over mine, I completely came unglued. I withered under him and allowed myself to be taken. Surrendering to him, I didn’t care what tomorrow would bring. I just wanted this moment with him, but at the same time, I had a feeling we were making a mistake.
Elijah suddenly stopped and let out a heavy breath. “Alex, what are we doing?” We can’t. You know how this will end up.” He had finally let go.
The truth was, he was right. I had let my desire and want take over. The fact that I was a virgin was another reason to stop, even though Elijah had no clue.
I didn’t know how to answer his question as I continued to stare at his sexy smile and enjoy his hand caressing my cheeks. “Eli…jah,” I hesitated, not sure how much I should tell him. “I’m not really that…what I mean to say is I’m not….” I was really making a mess of this, but how do you tell a guy you’re a virgin? I sucked in a deep breath. Here it goes. “I’m a virgin,” I blurted before I could change my mind.
Elijah nodded, looking at me blankly. Suddenly, I was lifted off the ground. He carried me to the bathroom and turned on the water.
“Take a shower,” he directed, unable to look me in the eyes. “I’ll clean the kitchen.”
His tone told me that what happened between us would never happen again. Apparently, it didn’t mean much to him. Whether one of us would end up moving out because of this, I didn’t know.
Chapter 25
Elijah
I slept in as long as I could, purposely avoiding Alex after what happened last night. My mind kept on racing, thinking about how good she felt in my arms, but at the same time wondering how I had let it go that far. Now knowing she’s a virgin, I’m glad I stopped. Since it was Saturday, I knew Alex had gone to work. Stretching and yawning, I went to the kitchen to get something to eat. My heart softened when I saw a plate covered with clear plastic wrap and the note on the white board.
Elijah,
Hope you win this race.
Please be careful.
I made this breakfast for you.
Liam is coming over to talk.
P.S. Don’t dunk your pancake in a glass of milk.
It will fall apart. I know you want to. Lol!
-Alex
Laughing aloud at her words, I lifted the cover. I let out a quick chuckle to see a racecar-shaped pancake. Cute! How could I eat this? I was starving, so I did anyway. Enjoying every bite, I saw Alex’s smile in my mind, but I couldn’t help the pain in my heart thinking of her back with that ass**le. He wasn’t good enough to be in the same room with her. I guess last night meant nothing to her. That hurt more than I wanted it to. It didn’t matter. None of this would be any good for either one of us.
I guess it was a good thing she wouldn’t be at the race. At least she wouldn’t be a distraction for me. I would constantly worry about her if she were there. Little did she know that I had told Lexy not to bring her. It was one of the most dangerous sites and the crowds were going to be worse than the last ones. It wasn’t safe for any audience, but unfortunately, more people meant more money for me.
“Alex,” I murmured. “I’m going to taste you now.”
I didn’t let her respond. After I heard what sounded like a whimper, I sucked on the wet spot on her neck that was splattered with milk. That was just the beginning. I couldn’t stop there. While I licked my way down, my hand slipped underneath her T-shirt and headed toward her breast. She arched her back and let out a sexy little moan that made me even more excited.
After pulling up her T-shirt to expose her breast, my tongue circled around it, and I sucked and teased her nipple until she felt the need to take a fist full of my hair. I knew I was driving her insane. Thinking she would push away and knowing I should end this before it went too far, I started to slow down. But when Alex started to spread her legs open for me—Holy shit! There was no way in hell I could control it now.
“We shouldn’t,” she groaned. “But don’t stop.”
That was all the confirmation I needed. I crushed my lips on hers hard from all the sexual tension that had built up for so long. I slid my hands underneath that fine ass of hers and teasingly rocked on top of her, obviously giving her what she wanted.
Alex moaned louder, putting me over the edge. I was desperately trying to control my urge. Everything about this felt so right and yet so wrong. I had to stop. I knew she would let me have her and if we gave into temptation tonight, we would both be screwed. There wasn’t going to be an “us” after this. I couldn’t give her the good things in life she deserved.
Alexandria
I dreamt about this several times, but I never knew Elijah would feel this good. When his mouth was over my nipple, I had utterly left all reality behind and floated blissfully away. When his lips were on mine, every single nerve in my body jolted, awakening me. I couldn’t understand why his touch excited me more than Liam ever could. Maybe because I knew Elijah was off limits or because I got a taste of what so many women wanted. Maybe it was the way he was caressing me with such need and passion.
I knew Elijah was slowing down and was probably thinking that this wasn’t a good idea, but it didn’t stop him when I moaned louder. When he pressed down on me, I nearly exploded. My body temperature changed drastically and I stopped shivering from the cold milk. Having his hard body over mine, I completely came unglued. I withered under him and allowed myself to be taken. Surrendering to him, I didn’t care what tomorrow would bring. I just wanted this moment with him, but at the same time, I had a feeling we were making a mistake.
Elijah suddenly stopped and let out a heavy breath. “Alex, what are we doing?” We can’t. You know how this will end up.” He had finally let go.
The truth was, he was right. I had let my desire and want take over. The fact that I was a virgin was another reason to stop, even though Elijah had no clue.
I didn’t know how to answer his question as I continued to stare at his sexy smile and enjoy his hand caressing my cheeks. “Eli…jah,” I hesitated, not sure how much I should tell him. “I’m not really that…what I mean to say is I’m not….” I was really making a mess of this, but how do you tell a guy you’re a virgin? I sucked in a deep breath. Here it goes. “I’m a virgin,” I blurted before I could change my mind.
Elijah nodded, looking at me blankly. Suddenly, I was lifted off the ground. He carried me to the bathroom and turned on the water.
“Take a shower,” he directed, unable to look me in the eyes. “I’ll clean the kitchen.”
His tone told me that what happened between us would never happen again. Apparently, it didn’t mean much to him. Whether one of us would end up moving out because of this, I didn’t know.
Chapter 25
Elijah
I slept in as long as I could, purposely avoiding Alex after what happened last night. My mind kept on racing, thinking about how good she felt in my arms, but at the same time wondering how I had let it go that far. Now knowing she’s a virgin, I’m glad I stopped. Since it was Saturday, I knew Alex had gone to work. Stretching and yawning, I went to the kitchen to get something to eat. My heart softened when I saw a plate covered with clear plastic wrap and the note on the white board.
Elijah,
Hope you win this race.
Please be careful.
I made this breakfast for you.
Liam is coming over to talk.
P.S. Don’t dunk your pancake in a glass of milk.
It will fall apart. I know you want to. Lol!
-Alex
Laughing aloud at her words, I lifted the cover. I let out a quick chuckle to see a racecar-shaped pancake. Cute! How could I eat this? I was starving, so I did anyway. Enjoying every bite, I saw Alex’s smile in my mind, but I couldn’t help the pain in my heart thinking of her back with that ass**le. He wasn’t good enough to be in the same room with her. I guess last night meant nothing to her. That hurt more than I wanted it to. It didn’t matter. None of this would be any good for either one of us.
I guess it was a good thing she wouldn’t be at the race. At least she wouldn’t be a distraction for me. I would constantly worry about her if she were there. Little did she know that I had told Lexy not to bring her. It was one of the most dangerous sites and the crowds were going to be worse than the last ones. It wasn’t safe for any audience, but unfortunately, more people meant more money for me.
