Take a Bow
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His eyes politely roll over my work and he leans back in his chair.
DR. PAFFORD: You are part of the drama department, Mr. Harrison. The showcase is to highlight the work of the different departments in the school, not a student’s outside hobby.
To be honest, I saw that coming. But that’s not the real reason why I’m here, so I decide to stop stalling.
ME: I understand. I was wondering if I could audition to be part of the art department next semester. I know I would only be eligible for the beginners’ classes.
DR. PAFFORD: There’s no transferring of programs this late in the process. You are graduating after next semester … in drama.
ME: Well, I have enough credits that I was wondering if —
DR. PAFFORD: Mr. Harrison, you are here to act. That is the program you enrolled in. You cannot shift to a new program after three and a half years.
ME: I see. Well, thank you for your time.
I get up to leave.
DR. PAFFORD: Now about that audition piece — what are you going to perform?
I turn toward him.
ME: I’m not auditioning. It’s been an incredible experience here, Dr. Pafford. But I have no desire to continue to be part of something I don’t believe in.
I can tell that he doesn’t know how to respond.
He clears his throat and finally speaks.
DR. PAFFORD: I’m sorry to hear that.
I look closely at him.
ME: I’m not.
I head to my locker and grab all my personal belongings. I don’t even hesitate for a second as I walk out of the school and don’t look back.
Yes, the truth shall set you free.
Everything seems to be happening all at once.
I knew that senior year would be overwhelming, but the next two weeks are like a perfect storm: Senior Showcase auditions, finals, and auditions for second semester. I’m thankful Ethan’s cast finally came off a few days ago so the band is back to full strength. I even had a chance to talk to Tyler; he was nice enough to listen to everything I had to say, but I don’t think he wants anything to do with me after that “humiliation.” I guess I don’t blame him.
But of course with everything coming up, all anybody really wants to talk about is Carter.
I couldn’t believe Carter actually dropped out of CPA. But he looked so happy when he told me about it. He was done with pretending and he was going to take some time off to focus on what he wants.
I guess I’ve been really lucky to always know what I want to do: music. I’ll admit the uncertainty of where I’ll be next year is stressful, but as I walk into the rehearsal room and see Jack, Ben, and Ethan, I know I’m not alone in this.
Jack gives me a smirk and cocks one eyebrow. “Well, hello, Emma.”
“Hi.” I continue to tune my guitar, not sure what Jack is trying to get at.
“So, Emma, anything you’d like to share with the band?”
Ben takes the bait. “What are you blabbering about, Jack? And why are you calling her Emma?”
Jack laughs. “I guess you haven’t read all about it, huh?” Jack pulls up something on his phone, and Ben gasps.
“What?” I go up and pull Jack’s phone from his hand. On the screen is the photo taken at the ice cream parlor of me on Carter’s lap. The caption reads: Harrison with girlfriend Emma days before he left the prestigious CPA.
I scroll up and start reading the gossip site’s article about Carter’s departure from CPA. The article paints Carter as some diva who was causing problems at school and decided to drop out. The only thing they have right is that he’s taking a vacation. He and his mom left for Italy yesterday for a few weeks. Then when he gets back he’s going to take the GED and enroll in art classes. But leave it to the Gossip Guru to “report” only on hearsay from students at CPA who didn’t like Carter, let alone know him.
“Well?” Jack’s been studying me.
“Well what?” I reply. What happened with Carter isn’t anybody’s business.
“You’re now dating Carter Harrison?” Jack folds his arms. “Because really, Red — oh, I’m sorry, Emma — you certainly seem to be getting around these days. You’re going to have to have a separate binder just to keep track of your social life.”
“No, we were having ice cream and the place wanted a picture…. I don’t know why they have my name as Emma. Or why —”
My stomach drops. Tyler is going to hear about this and any ounce of hope I had that he’d forgive me someday has disappeared. But even worse, there’s no way Sophie isn’t going to see this and think that I’m with Carter now.
“I’ve got to make a phone call.” I run out of the room and call Sophie. She doesn’t answer, so I leave a babbling message explaining everything. She hasn’t really talked about Carter since their breakup, but I have a feeling she’d be more upset with the fact that I’m in a picture, and identified, even incorrectly, on her favorite gossip site.
They’re waiting for me when I return.
Jack laughs. “You know, Red, I never figured you to be the biggest player in the group. First Tyler, then Ethan, now Carter. Pretty impressive.”
Ethan glares at Jack. Leave it to Jack to once again blow Ethan’s kiss after our performance completely out of proportion.
Jack is blissfully unaware of the daggers Ethan is shooting him so he continues. “I guess it is a good thing that I’m taken; I don’t think my heart could take your games.”
DR. PAFFORD: You are part of the drama department, Mr. Harrison. The showcase is to highlight the work of the different departments in the school, not a student’s outside hobby.
To be honest, I saw that coming. But that’s not the real reason why I’m here, so I decide to stop stalling.
ME: I understand. I was wondering if I could audition to be part of the art department next semester. I know I would only be eligible for the beginners’ classes.
DR. PAFFORD: There’s no transferring of programs this late in the process. You are graduating after next semester … in drama.
ME: Well, I have enough credits that I was wondering if —
DR. PAFFORD: Mr. Harrison, you are here to act. That is the program you enrolled in. You cannot shift to a new program after three and a half years.
ME: I see. Well, thank you for your time.
I get up to leave.
DR. PAFFORD: Now about that audition piece — what are you going to perform?
I turn toward him.
ME: I’m not auditioning. It’s been an incredible experience here, Dr. Pafford. But I have no desire to continue to be part of something I don’t believe in.
I can tell that he doesn’t know how to respond.
He clears his throat and finally speaks.
DR. PAFFORD: I’m sorry to hear that.
I look closely at him.
ME: I’m not.
I head to my locker and grab all my personal belongings. I don’t even hesitate for a second as I walk out of the school and don’t look back.
Yes, the truth shall set you free.
Everything seems to be happening all at once.
I knew that senior year would be overwhelming, but the next two weeks are like a perfect storm: Senior Showcase auditions, finals, and auditions for second semester. I’m thankful Ethan’s cast finally came off a few days ago so the band is back to full strength. I even had a chance to talk to Tyler; he was nice enough to listen to everything I had to say, but I don’t think he wants anything to do with me after that “humiliation.” I guess I don’t blame him.
But of course with everything coming up, all anybody really wants to talk about is Carter.
I couldn’t believe Carter actually dropped out of CPA. But he looked so happy when he told me about it. He was done with pretending and he was going to take some time off to focus on what he wants.
I guess I’ve been really lucky to always know what I want to do: music. I’ll admit the uncertainty of where I’ll be next year is stressful, but as I walk into the rehearsal room and see Jack, Ben, and Ethan, I know I’m not alone in this.
Jack gives me a smirk and cocks one eyebrow. “Well, hello, Emma.”
“Hi.” I continue to tune my guitar, not sure what Jack is trying to get at.
“So, Emma, anything you’d like to share with the band?”
Ben takes the bait. “What are you blabbering about, Jack? And why are you calling her Emma?”
Jack laughs. “I guess you haven’t read all about it, huh?” Jack pulls up something on his phone, and Ben gasps.
“What?” I go up and pull Jack’s phone from his hand. On the screen is the photo taken at the ice cream parlor of me on Carter’s lap. The caption reads: Harrison with girlfriend Emma days before he left the prestigious CPA.
I scroll up and start reading the gossip site’s article about Carter’s departure from CPA. The article paints Carter as some diva who was causing problems at school and decided to drop out. The only thing they have right is that he’s taking a vacation. He and his mom left for Italy yesterday for a few weeks. Then when he gets back he’s going to take the GED and enroll in art classes. But leave it to the Gossip Guru to “report” only on hearsay from students at CPA who didn’t like Carter, let alone know him.
“Well?” Jack’s been studying me.
“Well what?” I reply. What happened with Carter isn’t anybody’s business.
“You’re now dating Carter Harrison?” Jack folds his arms. “Because really, Red — oh, I’m sorry, Emma — you certainly seem to be getting around these days. You’re going to have to have a separate binder just to keep track of your social life.”
“No, we were having ice cream and the place wanted a picture…. I don’t know why they have my name as Emma. Or why —”
My stomach drops. Tyler is going to hear about this and any ounce of hope I had that he’d forgive me someday has disappeared. But even worse, there’s no way Sophie isn’t going to see this and think that I’m with Carter now.
“I’ve got to make a phone call.” I run out of the room and call Sophie. She doesn’t answer, so I leave a babbling message explaining everything. She hasn’t really talked about Carter since their breakup, but I have a feeling she’d be more upset with the fact that I’m in a picture, and identified, even incorrectly, on her favorite gossip site.
They’re waiting for me when I return.
Jack laughs. “You know, Red, I never figured you to be the biggest player in the group. First Tyler, then Ethan, now Carter. Pretty impressive.”
Ethan glares at Jack. Leave it to Jack to once again blow Ethan’s kiss after our performance completely out of proportion.
Jack is blissfully unaware of the daggers Ethan is shooting him so he continues. “I guess it is a good thing that I’m taken; I don’t think my heart could take your games.”
