If I Die
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My mothers reaper. Now my reaper. Again.
No one knows, except you two. Tod leaned against the refrigerator, watching me, probably wondering if he should have said anything at all. Knowing who would be coming for me didnt exactly lessen the stress of my last days. But I was glad hed told me.
How could this even happen? I demanded, as Nash paced back and forth between me and Tod. This reaperwhats his name?
Thane, Tod said, watching me from across the room. If he had a last name, its long gone now.
Thane. Once Id heard it, I had to say it. I had to try out the name of the man whod taken my mothers life out of spite when he was denied mine.
I shook my head to clear it and found both Hudson boys waiting for me to finish my thought. Shouldnt this bastard be on the run or something. I mean, hes psychotic, right? He tried to kill me again while I was still in the hospital, before my mom was even buried!
Yeah, and if hed actually been caught with an unauthorized soul, hed have been fired on the spot, Tod said. But your dad stopped him before he could kill you again. The bright side, obviously, is that youre still aliveat least so far. But the not-so-bright side is that Thane got away with attempted murder and potential soul trafficking because no one in the afterlife knew hed tried it. Your dad didnt even know he could report the incident, much less who to report it to. So, from what I can tell, Thanes spent the past thirteen years in another district, where he continued reaping off the record, but was never caught.
So youre saying the only way to keep him from killing me this time is if hed succeeded in killing me last time? My life had already been a nightmare. I probably shouldnt have been surprised that my death was becoming one, too.
Yeah. Tod shrugged miserably.
But theres no proof he did anything, after he went after Kaylee, is there? Nash said. If there was proof, theyd have repossessed his soul and sent him on to a true death, right? So how sure are we that hes ever even reaped off the record?
Tod exhaled slowly, then met his brothers gaze. Not sure enough to openly accuse him, but sure enough to have caught Levis attention. Turns out he was Thanes supervisor when Kaylee died the first time. He didnt like Thane, but he didnt have proof of anything, so he had him transferred out of the district. Then, when Levi saw Thane listed for your reaping the other day, he did some digging. There are no official complaints, but there are a few discrepancies in Thanes last district. No ones associated them with him yet, but then, they dont know what he tried to do to you.Hes never been caught in the act, or with an unauthorized soul.
So, how did he wind up in line to kill Kaylee again? Legally, this time? Nash asked, sinking into the chair next to mine. The bastard actually got promoted?
Not yet. This is something like a courtesy call, if I understand correctly, Tod explained. Thane is up for advancementproof positive that the system is flawedand since Kaylee was supposed to be his kill in the first place, some idiot higher up in the chain of command has decided that she should be his test case. A chance to finish what he started and secure a promotion.
And thats when I truly understood why Tod had considered his news important enough to interrupt me and Nash, even knowing what we wereup to. So, if my death is the key to Thanes promotion, theres no way hes going to let my dad do anything to mess that up.
Thats right. Tods eyes were eerily, frighteningly still, and suddenly the grim descriptor seemed to fit him perfectly. And if Thane gets this promotion, hell be working without a regular schedule, which will leave him plenty of time and opportunity to reap souls off the record, for profit or his own amusement. And what would amuse him more than reaping the soul of a man whos gotten in his way not once, not twice, but three times before?
That man, of course, would be my father.
No. No!
Kaylee, its going to be all right. Tod started across the room toward me, but stopped when Nash scooted closer to rub my back.
No, its not. Hes going to kill me. That sucks, but I could almost deal with that, because I thought that after Thursday, all my problems would be over. Nash would have Sabine to lean on, and I wouldnt care what they did together, because I wouldnt even exist anymore. My dad would be sad, but hed still be alive, and eventually hed deal.
But Tods bombshell had changed everything.
Tears filled my eyes, and I scrubbed my face with my hands to hide them. But I could still hear them in my voice. If my dad makes trouble and Thane kills him, what will he do with his soul?
Warm hands wrapped around my wrists and gently pulled my hands away from my face. I blinked, expecting to see Nashs hazel eyes staring into minebut I saw blue instead. Tod knelt in front of me, holding my arms, staring straight into my eyes. Thats not going to happen.
Dont promise her things you cant deliver, Nash snapped from the chair to my left, and I could hear anger in his voice, just as thick as the tears were in mine. We all know how well that worked out for Addison.
No one knows, except you two. Tod leaned against the refrigerator, watching me, probably wondering if he should have said anything at all. Knowing who would be coming for me didnt exactly lessen the stress of my last days. But I was glad hed told me.
How could this even happen? I demanded, as Nash paced back and forth between me and Tod. This reaperwhats his name?
Thane, Tod said, watching me from across the room. If he had a last name, its long gone now.
Thane. Once Id heard it, I had to say it. I had to try out the name of the man whod taken my mothers life out of spite when he was denied mine.
I shook my head to clear it and found both Hudson boys waiting for me to finish my thought. Shouldnt this bastard be on the run or something. I mean, hes psychotic, right? He tried to kill me again while I was still in the hospital, before my mom was even buried!
Yeah, and if hed actually been caught with an unauthorized soul, hed have been fired on the spot, Tod said. But your dad stopped him before he could kill you again. The bright side, obviously, is that youre still aliveat least so far. But the not-so-bright side is that Thane got away with attempted murder and potential soul trafficking because no one in the afterlife knew hed tried it. Your dad didnt even know he could report the incident, much less who to report it to. So, from what I can tell, Thanes spent the past thirteen years in another district, where he continued reaping off the record, but was never caught.
So youre saying the only way to keep him from killing me this time is if hed succeeded in killing me last time? My life had already been a nightmare. I probably shouldnt have been surprised that my death was becoming one, too.
Yeah. Tod shrugged miserably.
But theres no proof he did anything, after he went after Kaylee, is there? Nash said. If there was proof, theyd have repossessed his soul and sent him on to a true death, right? So how sure are we that hes ever even reaped off the record?
Tod exhaled slowly, then met his brothers gaze. Not sure enough to openly accuse him, but sure enough to have caught Levis attention. Turns out he was Thanes supervisor when Kaylee died the first time. He didnt like Thane, but he didnt have proof of anything, so he had him transferred out of the district. Then, when Levi saw Thane listed for your reaping the other day, he did some digging. There are no official complaints, but there are a few discrepancies in Thanes last district. No ones associated them with him yet, but then, they dont know what he tried to do to you.Hes never been caught in the act, or with an unauthorized soul.
So, how did he wind up in line to kill Kaylee again? Legally, this time? Nash asked, sinking into the chair next to mine. The bastard actually got promoted?
Not yet. This is something like a courtesy call, if I understand correctly, Tod explained. Thane is up for advancementproof positive that the system is flawedand since Kaylee was supposed to be his kill in the first place, some idiot higher up in the chain of command has decided that she should be his test case. A chance to finish what he started and secure a promotion.
And thats when I truly understood why Tod had considered his news important enough to interrupt me and Nash, even knowing what we wereup to. So, if my death is the key to Thanes promotion, theres no way hes going to let my dad do anything to mess that up.
Thats right. Tods eyes were eerily, frighteningly still, and suddenly the grim descriptor seemed to fit him perfectly. And if Thane gets this promotion, hell be working without a regular schedule, which will leave him plenty of time and opportunity to reap souls off the record, for profit or his own amusement. And what would amuse him more than reaping the soul of a man whos gotten in his way not once, not twice, but three times before?
That man, of course, would be my father.
No. No!
Kaylee, its going to be all right. Tod started across the room toward me, but stopped when Nash scooted closer to rub my back.
No, its not. Hes going to kill me. That sucks, but I could almost deal with that, because I thought that after Thursday, all my problems would be over. Nash would have Sabine to lean on, and I wouldnt care what they did together, because I wouldnt even exist anymore. My dad would be sad, but hed still be alive, and eventually hed deal.
But Tods bombshell had changed everything.
Tears filled my eyes, and I scrubbed my face with my hands to hide them. But I could still hear them in my voice. If my dad makes trouble and Thane kills him, what will he do with his soul?
Warm hands wrapped around my wrists and gently pulled my hands away from my face. I blinked, expecting to see Nashs hazel eyes staring into minebut I saw blue instead. Tod knelt in front of me, holding my arms, staring straight into my eyes. Thats not going to happen.
Dont promise her things you cant deliver, Nash snapped from the chair to my left, and I could hear anger in his voice, just as thick as the tears were in mine. We all know how well that worked out for Addison.
