Worth Forgiving
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“You’re coming back?” she asks, surprised.
“Of course I’m coming back.” My brows draw together. “Did you think I was going to pack my stuff and say goodbye. It’s been fun, nice to meet you?” The more I think about it, the angrier it makes me she would even consider I’d disappear after the last few weeks.
“I. We. I…it’s just…we never spoke about the future…after your business is done here.”
“My business is far from done here, Angel.”
She looks up at me. Her freshly showered face free of makeup, she’s even more beautiful than usual. There’s something so vulnerable about her, yet strong at the same time. “I thought you said the bank was almost done and everything was almost wrapped up for the investors.”
“It is.” I kiss her shoulder blade. “That’s not the business I was referring to. There’s other, more important things, I need to take care of here.”
The corners of her mouth twitch upwards with hope. She wraps her arms around my neck. “What other things do you need to take care of?” she asks coyly.
I trail one finger across her shoulder, my pointer finger slipping off the spaghetti strap of her tank top. Following the delicate curve of her collarbone, I reach across to the other shoulder and slip the other strap off too. The thin fabric of her night shirt falls, revealing her perfect br**sts. I’m mesmerized as I watch her ni**les harden before my eyes.
“There’s lots of business here I need to take care of. Important business.” My mouth drops to her nipple and I suck it in deeply, tugging a bit with my teeth as I release it pulling my head back. “I’m going to tell you all about it as I take care of it now.” I lift her from my lap and scoop her into my arms. She squeals a bit, the sound makes me smile even more. “You ready for the play by play?”
She nods and bites her bottom lip, her eyes going from playful to hooded.
“I can’t hear you.” I begin to walk toward the bedroom.
“Yes.” The single word comes out breathless. It makes my c**k harden in my pants just knowing I can make her that way.
“Yes, what?”
“I want to hear the play by play.”
And so I do. I tell her about each important thing I need to take care of right before I do it. Sucking her tits. Licking her sweet pu**y. Making her scream my name as she comes.
***
My parent’s home, the one I’ve lived in since the day I was born, sits atop a tall hill overlooking downtown D.C. Grand gates block the passage to strangers, leaving them only to imagine the characters in the storybook that is on display for the world to see. Punching in the code, I look up at the main house. Soaring white pillars frame the strikingly tall double front doors to the stately home. Strategically placed lights illuminate the finer points of architecture, leading your eyes to see what is on display, instead of the darkness that truly looms inside. It’s a home very much like the man that lives inside. Perfect on the outside, standing tall, defying anyone to question its place in the community. But the inside is cold and filled with lies.
Three years ago I moved out of the main house and into the small guest cottage. I’d wanted to get my own apartment downtown, but my mother talked me into a compromise. Parking in the driveway of a place that once felt like home, I realize I feel more like an intruder than someone that belongs.
A large pile of mail waits for me on the dining room table, an announcement rests on top. Thick card stock and calligraphy proclaim the birthday party will take place at eight sharp. No doubt hundreds were hand delivered all across town, an invite for every dignitary. I wonder again if my decision to come was right.
A family portrait hangs on the wall in the living room, compliments of my mother when I moved in. I was only about five or six, dressed in a suit with suspenders, I stood proudly between them. Both of them smile widely for the camera, I step closer to study their faces. My father’s smile is the same one I’ve seen a million times, he’s perfected it over the years. Sadly, I’m not sure I can even remember what the natural one looks like anymore. But it’s my mother’s face that I examine for the longest time. I search her eyes, wondering if she was covering her sadness even back then, or if it developed in the years after.
Was there ever anything real in my life? Or did the lies and secrets surround me from the day I was born so I didn’t know anything different.
Startled by the sound but not faintly surprised at the visit, my father’s voice breaks into my thoughts as I stand staring at the picture. “You’re liquidating a substantial amount of investments. What’s going on Jackson?”
I shake my head and laugh out loud, even though I find nothing really funny. I make a mental note to change bankers. Come to think of it, there are probably a dozen changes I need to make in my life to rid myself of the old boys club that my father gets his information from. So much for damn privacy laws. “It’s none of your business what I do with my money. But don’t worry, I’m not paying off a madam that’s blackmailing me or investing in heroin.” I walk to the bar in the living room and pour myself a drink, not extending a courtesy to my unwelcomed guest. “You don’t have to concern yourself about a looming scandal, if that’s what you’re worried about.” I take a sip of the amber liquid, it burns as it slides down my throat. “Don’t you have plenty of your own scandals to worry about anyway?”
“I know you’re upset, but I won’t tolerate being disrespected in my own home,” he says with disdain.
I toss the rest of the liquid back and turn to face my father with a smile laced with venom. “That won’t be a problem. I won’t be staying long.”
“And where will you go? Back to New York to waste your time hanging around a bunch of losers who think beating each other is a sport? And this Lily…she isn’t the type of woman you need.”
“You don’t know anything about Lily,” I spit. “In fact, you don’t really know anything about me either.”
“I know her kind. Enjoy yourself, sow your wild oats. But marry a well-bred woman.”
“I’d f**king lay you out right now, if I didn’t find you so pathetic.” Looking at my father for the first time I see tired and worn.
“Lay me out? You sound like an animal. Like that half-breed brother of yours. That’s what you’ll wind up being spending your days in a place like you’ve been.”
“Of course I’m coming back.” My brows draw together. “Did you think I was going to pack my stuff and say goodbye. It’s been fun, nice to meet you?” The more I think about it, the angrier it makes me she would even consider I’d disappear after the last few weeks.
“I. We. I…it’s just…we never spoke about the future…after your business is done here.”
“My business is far from done here, Angel.”
She looks up at me. Her freshly showered face free of makeup, she’s even more beautiful than usual. There’s something so vulnerable about her, yet strong at the same time. “I thought you said the bank was almost done and everything was almost wrapped up for the investors.”
“It is.” I kiss her shoulder blade. “That’s not the business I was referring to. There’s other, more important things, I need to take care of here.”
The corners of her mouth twitch upwards with hope. She wraps her arms around my neck. “What other things do you need to take care of?” she asks coyly.
I trail one finger across her shoulder, my pointer finger slipping off the spaghetti strap of her tank top. Following the delicate curve of her collarbone, I reach across to the other shoulder and slip the other strap off too. The thin fabric of her night shirt falls, revealing her perfect br**sts. I’m mesmerized as I watch her ni**les harden before my eyes.
“There’s lots of business here I need to take care of. Important business.” My mouth drops to her nipple and I suck it in deeply, tugging a bit with my teeth as I release it pulling my head back. “I’m going to tell you all about it as I take care of it now.” I lift her from my lap and scoop her into my arms. She squeals a bit, the sound makes me smile even more. “You ready for the play by play?”
She nods and bites her bottom lip, her eyes going from playful to hooded.
“I can’t hear you.” I begin to walk toward the bedroom.
“Yes.” The single word comes out breathless. It makes my c**k harden in my pants just knowing I can make her that way.
“Yes, what?”
“I want to hear the play by play.”
And so I do. I tell her about each important thing I need to take care of right before I do it. Sucking her tits. Licking her sweet pu**y. Making her scream my name as she comes.
***
My parent’s home, the one I’ve lived in since the day I was born, sits atop a tall hill overlooking downtown D.C. Grand gates block the passage to strangers, leaving them only to imagine the characters in the storybook that is on display for the world to see. Punching in the code, I look up at the main house. Soaring white pillars frame the strikingly tall double front doors to the stately home. Strategically placed lights illuminate the finer points of architecture, leading your eyes to see what is on display, instead of the darkness that truly looms inside. It’s a home very much like the man that lives inside. Perfect on the outside, standing tall, defying anyone to question its place in the community. But the inside is cold and filled with lies.
Three years ago I moved out of the main house and into the small guest cottage. I’d wanted to get my own apartment downtown, but my mother talked me into a compromise. Parking in the driveway of a place that once felt like home, I realize I feel more like an intruder than someone that belongs.
A large pile of mail waits for me on the dining room table, an announcement rests on top. Thick card stock and calligraphy proclaim the birthday party will take place at eight sharp. No doubt hundreds were hand delivered all across town, an invite for every dignitary. I wonder again if my decision to come was right.
A family portrait hangs on the wall in the living room, compliments of my mother when I moved in. I was only about five or six, dressed in a suit with suspenders, I stood proudly between them. Both of them smile widely for the camera, I step closer to study their faces. My father’s smile is the same one I’ve seen a million times, he’s perfected it over the years. Sadly, I’m not sure I can even remember what the natural one looks like anymore. But it’s my mother’s face that I examine for the longest time. I search her eyes, wondering if she was covering her sadness even back then, or if it developed in the years after.
Was there ever anything real in my life? Or did the lies and secrets surround me from the day I was born so I didn’t know anything different.
Startled by the sound but not faintly surprised at the visit, my father’s voice breaks into my thoughts as I stand staring at the picture. “You’re liquidating a substantial amount of investments. What’s going on Jackson?”
I shake my head and laugh out loud, even though I find nothing really funny. I make a mental note to change bankers. Come to think of it, there are probably a dozen changes I need to make in my life to rid myself of the old boys club that my father gets his information from. So much for damn privacy laws. “It’s none of your business what I do with my money. But don’t worry, I’m not paying off a madam that’s blackmailing me or investing in heroin.” I walk to the bar in the living room and pour myself a drink, not extending a courtesy to my unwelcomed guest. “You don’t have to concern yourself about a looming scandal, if that’s what you’re worried about.” I take a sip of the amber liquid, it burns as it slides down my throat. “Don’t you have plenty of your own scandals to worry about anyway?”
“I know you’re upset, but I won’t tolerate being disrespected in my own home,” he says with disdain.
I toss the rest of the liquid back and turn to face my father with a smile laced with venom. “That won’t be a problem. I won’t be staying long.”
“And where will you go? Back to New York to waste your time hanging around a bunch of losers who think beating each other is a sport? And this Lily…she isn’t the type of woman you need.”
“You don’t know anything about Lily,” I spit. “In fact, you don’t really know anything about me either.”
“I know her kind. Enjoy yourself, sow your wild oats. But marry a well-bred woman.”
“I’d f**king lay you out right now, if I didn’t find you so pathetic.” Looking at my father for the first time I see tired and worn.
“Lay me out? You sound like an animal. Like that half-breed brother of yours. That’s what you’ll wind up being spending your days in a place like you’ve been.”
